cari hari

Johorean and proud.a long one.

2012-01-20T01:54:00.000+08:00

I applied for the post freelance writer in some organization. they require me to write an article on iskandar malaysia. so,i;m submitting it here, just in case. because i wrote this article, with some reference from the official website, and some news.

of. feel free to comment. thanks.

p/s: it's easier to write a scientific paper than a non-scientific paper.only now i know the torture of not wanting to bore your reader.

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Who says Johor is a good place to live in? With all those traffic jams, thousands of cars and the numbers are growing each day. I’ve even been told by someone from other state, that there is no way he’s going to live in Johor, to be specific, the Iskandar Malaysia. The idea is even insane to begin with, he added. And well, as a true Johorean at heart, I beg to differ. As insane as it may sound to him, it’s more insane to me if someone rejects the idea of not accepting the opportunity to live in Iskandar Malaysia.

Let me start my justifications with the urbanisation of Iskandar Malaysia. I have peers from other states in Peninsular Malaysia, and most of them admit that Johorean have modern appearances. That is one aspect of it. With the urbanisation rate of 66.5% since 2005, the development currently on-going in Iskandar Malaysia has transformed the Johorean into a modern community. Adapting to changes, mind opened towards ideas and the initiative to unite, are the traits which is visible among the people of Iskandar Malaysia.

The urbanisation occurring in Iskandar Malaysia was not done hastily without any guidelines, obviously. Even the urbanisation of any kampong in any area in this country is carefully planned by the ketua kampong and his committee members. And for the development of Iskandar Malaysia which is estimated to cost more than RM47 billion, it does not come easy. The goals are ambitious, and yet realistic. To make exist of livable communities that are active, safe and well managed, those things are achievable, with the help of none other than, the active community of the Iskandar Malaysia itself. And there’s more. Iskandar Malaysia has targeted to be environmentally friendly, well-built and designed, and also well connected. There you go; a place to live in, which is well managed, environmentally friendly and well designed. What more could a resident ask for?

No I am certainly not forgetting the security aspect of Iskandar Malaysia. Security is the top priority as one decided to settle down in any residential area. And talking about Iskandar Malaysia, the Polis DiRaja Malaysia (PDRM) stated that it is working on every aspect there is to ensure the successfulness of 46 programmes outlined under Iskandar Malaysia blueprint. In May 2010, an interview with the Johor Police Chief Deputy Commissioner, Datuk Mokhtar Sharif was held and he was cited mentioning a total of 2000 CCTVs would be installed by the end of the year, in order to ensure the safety of the investors and residents of Iskandar Malaysia. Not cool enough? How about the fact that besides the abundant amount of CCTVs, the Iskandar Regional Development Authority (Irda) would also build 208 Community Police Posts in housing estates? To sum up this point, I am also proud to announce the fact that Johor is among the top crime cases solved, which is 46.74% of 26,035 cases reported in 2009 which is above the key performance index of 20%. Not all figures can give you the comfort feeling as you read them, right?

A great city is not great without great minds. And great minds usually start with great education. And not to worry, Iskandar Malaysia has it all. Being named Educity, it is currently being built and developed in Iskandar Malaysia. A regional education hub and a destination for quality world-class education, it will be a future facility for our children to learn and grow. From kindergartens to universities, there are many options for the construction of great minds. There will be various options for them to choose from, close from home with all the facilities perfectly set up around them, or somewhere far so they can be apart from their families. It is for them to choose.

Another must for a great city to survive is its ability to stay green. We don’t want to be the last generation to know trees when we see them, right? I’ve heard a true story of a child of someone I knew. When being asked to draw a chicken, the child drew a chicken drumstick. And I believe none of us wants our children to grow without the proper education of the world revolving around them. And once again, Iskandar Malaysia is to the rescue. Here in Iskandar Malaysia, 23,158 hectares of land area have been reserved to this cause. Planting trees, watering them and watching them grow; those are truly normal activities for perfectly normal people, right? So why bother on other tedious things when the vital things that keep us alive and healthy are not being taken care of? Oh this is something lovely, isn’t it?

And back to business. As a global hub for investment, education and leisure, Iskandar Malaysia does not only provide comfort living for its local residents, expatriates will also get benefits from it. Through a programme called Malaysia My Second Home, participants were showered with plenty of benefits including renewable 10-year visa and the right to one tax-free car. This shows that Iskandar Malaysia care for the welfare of its residents, no matter where they are from. As long as thou are united under the roof of Iskandar Malaysia, thou shall be treated well.

Given an opportunity to live a modern, secured life, with the assurance of good quality of education and realistic goals, one does not simply give a second thought. In addition to that, the Greenland for future generation, and welfare for expatriates, Iskandar Malaysia is simply one of the best place to live in. By providing all the facilities, Iskandar Malaysia has indirectly united its residents, transforming them into Johorean, like you and me, and we will remain Johorean, and proud.

And come again, who says Johor is a good place to live in?

i'm having my final paper tomorrow (photos from google images)

2012-01-17T10:51:00.004+08:00

profile pictures (all words no photos)

2012-01-13T11:20:00.000+08:00

i used to,and still feel,that fake profile pictures on fb are not cool.especially the account you use to interact with your real life friends on the internet.

fake pictures,cartoon pictures,fake names,manga names,anime names whatsoever.

take as example, my fb contacts are my real friends, people i have met face to face at least once in my whole life.
whatever i'm sharing on my profile,are the things i would like to share to my friends,but not personal things,and not the things i find may hurt most of my friends.

that's where original name and picture comes in handy. you know,you don't expect your friends to recall every information about you once you share something on your profile,unless your friends really know you.

but,lately,some things changed.

i am a frequent visitor to a website called nine(numbered form)gag, a website where people can see funny pictures,with a lot of sarcasm.
and i like it,because malaysian people,especially the malay girls,do not produce quality jokes.
and some cannot even accept if people give sarcastic replies on their jokes.
worst of all,they dont even get it.

back to business.this website,visited by millions,or maybe billions of people around the world,allows people to comment.
and the comments are more funnier,dumber,sarcastic that the post itself.
and there are posts which make fun of various aspects: race, belief, religion, politics, gender etc.
and there are more atheists in this world than u can imagine,surviving and spreading sporadically in this website.
but,as the website's slogan: Just for fun!, people take the jokes lightly,cause it's fun.

and,as u comment on the posts,it will link to ur fb profile,which means, ur comment will display your fb profile picture.

and here's one fact: as we already know, the world recognize muslim as terrorists,and women should be in the kitchen.
and a muslim woman: a terrorist in the kitchen.

and as a person who visit and comment on a regular basis on the website, i dont want to be seen as, there you go, a terrorist in the kitchen.

i am not being paranoid, but each time i find a smart and funny comment, i will make an effort of checking on his profile, you know, stalking. hehe
and i believe, there are other people doing that.

and there you go,why do you find my fb profile picture,lately,display cartoon characters i drew myself using ms paint.
not that i am immature and such, but i'm still using my real name though.

what was she thinking? (edisi stress exam)

2012-01-10T16:56:00.002+08:00

really?is it necessary?

2012-01-09T22:08:00.001+08:00

the story of my love life

2012-01-05T08:37:00.001+08:00

we both know that you'll read this

google images

i had a very bad break-up recently.

when i got to know him for the first month, my heart told me that he's the one.

with our long term plans.

with our life objectives.

and he really convinced me as a future man of my family.

not until recently, after almost a year.

i found out that he 'is not into commitment' anymore.

at the age of a quarter of a decade.

and then he decided to take it off.

and after i got through a very rough time,

with exams, lab works, financial, family, reports, articles, thesis and assignments,

he came back, asking how and what am i doing,

wanting us to still be connected.

it's not that i hate you.

but you made me hate you.

what pasts is past.

do not open up your memory box and share stories with friends.

go figure out your life.

don't make other people miserable.

you don't make the world wait for you.

you run after it.

sincerely,

your just-recovered-and-now-ready-to-move-on 'stopover'

new passion

2011-12-30T19:44:00.001+08:00

resting cats (a lot of pics)

2011-12-30T13:13:00.000+08:00

cats kinda have the same face while they are resting.don't you think?

and last but not least

please just don't waste your money on the unnecessary things..

2011-12-29T13:51:00.000+08:00

tegur sesama kawan.takleh ke?

2011-12-28T11:23:00.002+08:00

mood spoiler

2011-12-28T10:39:00.002+08:00

admit it

2011-12-27T17:00:00.000+08:00

jumpa ni dalam fesbuk kawan. tapi tak ingat siapa. ada modify sikit2 juga. jangan marah ye..

click image to enlarge

true story 3

2011-12-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

minta maaf lah tak cakap sumber dari mana.tak ingat.takpelah.camni pun boleh kira dah bagitau lah ambil kat mana kan?

true story 2

2011-12-26T11:08:00.002+08:00

not worth waiting

2011-12-14T14:00:00.001+08:00

something came up while i was doing my assignment

2011-12-13T16:04:00.000+08:00

true story

2011-12-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

just a nerd joke

2011-12-11T18:28:00.002+08:00

rants

2011-12-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

hi.

this is the very first time i stayed up this late just to burn the midnight oil.

i'm having a written examination tomorrow, a paper prepared by my own thesis supervisor.

and she has already reminded me to do well,or else i'll have to repeat papers just for the sake of getting better grades.

why am i doing a last minute revising?

how NOT to do a last minute revising?

i am not reasoning here, but yes, i'm providing some, according to me, logical answers.

we know about the date of the exam not until, about 2 weeks back,

when we were busy preparing samples for our rat bioassay.

we went to the lab in the morning, and get back home in the evening, with transits to classes in between.

oh, and some sneaking outs for pray and lunch.

we were also busy with some other academic related things.

yes, we do get assignments, discussions.etc etc.

we even go to the lab on weekend. rain or shine.

because we care for our lab rats more than for ourselves.

thus, how NOT to do a last minute revising?

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i love this.i love being busy.

it takes me away from being a sick child.

worrying too much on why she's being abandoned by her partner.

waiting for the mane who made promises (but yet,the content of his heart is unfigurable.[is there such word as unfigurable?heck,do i care])

but.this love does not last long,especially when you have very limited time to do everything.

mind you,it takes a lot of motivation and positive vibes and mood to complete those things.

yes,men are like machines,but men are not machines.

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so here i am,cursing silently at one time and being thankful on another.

kisah si gadis dan pak guard

2011-11-30T18:04:00.000+08:00

semalam saya pergi bayar saman.dua kali kereta kena saman.sebab park kat tempat staf.
ye,tempat parking untuk pelajar memanglah tiada.

"habis tu,kenapa bawa kereta?"

saya bawa kereta bukanlah menunjuk kaya.memang langsung tak kaya pun.
dulu masa degree hanya berjalan kaki atau tumpang motor kawan ke kelas.
ni sebab masa kerja,sempatlah beli kereta. dan sekarang duduk rumah sewa.
macam mana nak ke lab yang kat ceruk dunia kalau tak ada kereta?

oleh kerana kesedaran bahawa saya dah buat salah (dan sebab nanti result kena gantung kalau tak bayar saman),
saya pergilah bayar saman.

sedang beratur, ada seorang gadis cantik beratur di belakang saya.
mundar mandir ke hulu ke hilir umpama ada 40 orang lagi sedang beratur di hadapannya,. (ada 2 orang je)
bersamanya ada seorang kawan lelaki, kawan sekelasnya.

"weh,sempat ke ni weh.malam ni dah lah test!"
"sempat...janganlah risau..."

"dahlah ada kelas pukul 2.nanti aku masuk lambat, diorang kata aku tak pergi kelas pulak!"
"ala...ni kejap je ni..."

giliran saya sudah sampai.dapat pengurangan kompaun sebanyak dua puluh ringgit.
si gadis sudah di kaunter sebelah.

"pakcik,kenapa selama ni saya park kat tempat tu tak pernah kena saman pun.baru-baru ni je kena saman?"
"habis dah selama ni nasib awak baik.harini je tak baik"

"tapi pakcik,saya memang dah selalu sangat dah park kat situ!"
"takpelah.lepas ni selalu lah kami ronda kat situ"

"tapi pakcik,kat mana kami nak parking?rumah saya jauh!"
"sebab tu kita ada park and ride.tinggalkan kereta,kemudian naik bas"

"tapi pakcik,parking ada.tapi parking staf je.."
"awak ni pelajar ke staf?"
"pelajar"
"jadi janganlah parking kat parking staf...."

inilah dilema pemandu kereta dalam kampus.kereta gadis itu sudah di clamp.

saya tak kena clamp.sebab sejurus saya sedar kesilapan yang dilakukan, saya hanya park kereta di tempat yang diwartakan umum sahaja.
lepas tu kenalah berjalan kaki sikit.bila lagi nak berjalan kaki,ye tak?

oh.lupa.kesalahan gadis tersebut adalah,
1) tidak mempunyai pelekat kenderaan dalam kampus
2) sudah mempunyai 1 saman terdahulu
3) parking di tempat bas berhenti

hiccups

2011-11-29T15:44:00.000+08:00

i have every reason to be worried.

of financial shortage
sambung belajar full time. dah elok-elok kerja, berhenti.
pakai duit gaji, buat sambung master.
tak minta pinjaman. hanya bergantung pada duit simpanan, dan duit mak bapak.
sekarang, duit dah habis. syukur Alhamdulillah dapat biasiswa. lepaslah nak settlekan yuran.
tapi claim yuran yang semester 1 tak dapat lagi.
duit dah habis. lagi. bergantung harap pada gaji sebagai RA yang tak seberapa tu.
duit tu lah nak bayar sewa, makan, kereta, minyak, etc.

of failing relationship(s)

i've had had multiple failed relationships.

at the age where everybody is busy having babies,getting married,planning on getting married.

i'm a mess now.
mula-mula kita taknak orang tu, lepas tu kita nak, tapi orang tu dah tak nak kat kita.
jiwa menjadi kusut.

of multiple tasks yet to be settled
baru lepas siap menanda lab report budak-budak undergrad.
baru satu lab session. ada lagi 2 lab sessions punya report.
nak buat artikel lagi. dua artikel.
research yang tak bergerak.
projek tikus. exams. warghhh.

of household communication problems
two rooms with four residents but zero communication.
sini tak puas hati dengan sana. sana tak puas hati dengan sini.
sana block parking sini. sini serakkan meja makan. sana tak cuci periuk kuali pinggan mangkuk.
macam-macam hal.

.......and many many moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i do have every reason to be worried.
and yet, i feel great, happy, and blessed.

because, i know, how troubled i am, there's still some love.
if not from everyone i know, there'll be at least 1 group of people: mi familia.
and friends.yeahh.

LET'S STRIVE FOR EXCELLENCE!!

ambitions

2011-11-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

i used to believe that a human can do anything beyond their imagination.

to excel in academic,a human brain can replicate new cells as it functions.
the more you think,the higher the capacity of the brain can achieve.

to excel physically,we've heard of many many great stories.
an old lady in third world countries can carry up extremely heavy items.
a child can pull tonnes of weight,of course aided.
and many many more.just google it up.

i was, and still am,an ambitious person.
i will try to do everything other people can do.
i used to make my mind believe that nothing is impossible.

therefore i was brave in exploring my ambitions alone.

but until recently,i doubt my own belief.

i have flaws in written exams.i have flaws in multitasking.i have flaws in everything.

i took a part time job waiting tables.
a full time masters student during the day and work nightly.
and in the end,i fail to excel in both,because of an unforeseen bone illness.
i now have problems in focusing in something,mainly because i can't be in one posture for 1 hour or more.

but anyway,the heart knows what the mind can't see and the body can't feel.

although i feel pain and weak,deep down inside i do believe that i still can do everything.
there's still a long way to go.
i still have many more greater things to achieve.

the case of the diary

2011-10-26T13:54:00.000+08:00

Talking to another person is easing.because you may get your responses directly,be it positive or negative.
you'll feel glad,you'll feel happy,you'll feel relieved because you let the things buried deep in your chest out.
especially those who like to voice out opinions, or stories, like me.

i do have a person, who i feel the need to tell the every inches of my stories to.
more like a diary to me.
for me to tell the first thing i thought of when i got up, my feelings, my opinions, so on and so forth.
it'll be a freedom to me, just to tell from the simplest to the complexest of things to this person.

but what happens when there's no diary to write your activities, rituals or emotions to?
for me,i feel frustrated.
i feel tense.
i feel stuck.
i feel sad.
and i will hate many things although it never occurred to me to hate those things before.

and then came all the things we can do to fill up our free time.our empty hearts.

so who needs a diary when the diary doesn't listen to u anymore?

true story.human.female.

2011-10-01T13:46:00.000+08:00

i strongly believe that a woman gotta do what a woman gotta do.
it doesn't matter if you dressed up smartly early in the morning, wearing black A skirt, expensive perfume, hair dressed, driving a car with the air condition turned on going to the office (okay, maybe not everybody is in the executive level, sometimes clerks also dressed smarter than the execs),

but my point is, when it comes to housechores, there's no such thing as you don't know how to do it.

true story. and i had to leak it out here because i have totally, extremely pissed off with my housemate of about 5 months. but i am too chicken out to smack her directly in the face.

she's about 30. well, she is 30. she works in an office. but i dont think she's on the top level, looking at some points.
physically, she's plump. that'll do it.
she went out to work at about 9, and came home at about 6.
she has all the necessary kitchen thingy-rice cooker, salt n pepper, oil, eggs etc etc. but she has never cooked anything other than frying burger patties or sausages.

what pissed me off are as below:
1) she does not close the gate sometimes, or the sliding grill door when she knows i am inside, even though i was sleeping at the moment she went out. what if i got raped? will she restore my virginity with hers?
2) i never see her sweep the floor
3) she never take turn to go pay the bills. it will be us who pay first and she repays later.
4) we decided to buy a refrigerator once. we even asked their permission for it and told them that any increase in electricity fee will be bared by us. but it turned out that, she has already stored a stand 4 feet refrigerator in her room since who-knows-when. and we had to pay for it all along without knowing it.
5) she never, ever, ever clean her mess after frying the foods. she left the wok and used oil where it is, and she reused the oil even after 2 or 3 days. and the people who do the cleaning: my roommate and i.
oh. and plenty of other things which i cant remember now.too pissed off already.

maybe she's being superior, thinking that she's an office person, unlike us, stuck in front of the laptop and classes all day, made her housework-free.

but even us, who once will once again enter the working field, get paid salary 3 or maybe 5 times more than her, do all the dirty works. we sweep, we mop and we clean the garbage, used dirty clothes and even the broom with our bare hands.

so friends, do remember, a woman is still a woman, no matter how high u think u are.
as long as u dont have a maid at home, u gotta do what a woman gotta do.

p/s: i am writing this in anger. i will delete it once i find it unsuitable to be kept posted. yeah i know. it's not good to embarrass other people.

nenek kata

2011-09-20T13:41:00.000+08:00

kita tak perlu untuk appoint seorang wealth advisor untuk jaga kewangan kita.especially bila duit yang kita ada tu tak sampai pun juta biliun ziliun. orang kaya zaman dahulu kala pun kaya sebab kepandaian mereka menjaga harta mereka. tapi takdelah wajibul untuk mereka pergi sekolah inggeris untuk pandai uruskan harta sendiri. asalkan tahu ke mana hala tuju duit itu selepas ini, pastikan balance sentiasa cukup, dan fikirkan tentang anak cucu cicit, memadailah.

my first experience pergi ke hearing harta pusaka adalah tidak menarik langsung. pada asalnya, saya beranggapan yang ia akan berjalan seperti biasa. iyelah. semua yang datang dah tua-tua. takde kepentingan lain, selain menghabisi harta yang ada.

nah. jangan disangka air yang tenang tak ada buaya. kalau dalam cerita omputeh kat tv yang saya penah tengok dulu tu, buaya dia yang zaman batu dulu tu.

super crocodile. pic from http://thegreencuttingboard.blogspot.com/Prehistoric-croc.jpg

ha.itulah dia gambar supercrocodile.

oh.dan makcik yang ada dah tak berapa nak sihat fizikal dan mental pun masih berupaya membangkang ketika proses pembahagian pusaka. duniaaa.

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percaya atas kebolehan diri sendiri adalah satu nilai yang mengagumkan.

ada sesetengah orang, dia tidak tahu apa kemampuannya. mungkin kerana malu. malu hendak menunjuk di hadapan orang akan kemampuannya.

tapi tak haruslah malu kalau kemampuannya itu mampu menjadi titik kejayaan untuk orang lain.

senang cerita, kalau dia buang sifat malu dia, dan dia buat sesuatu yang sebelum ini tidak pernah dibuat oleh orang lain, dan apa yang dibuatnya itu menjadi titik tolak untuk kemudahan orang lain, kan ke elok tu?

tapi ada pulak yang tak berapa nak tahu malu sikit. dicanang semua kelebihannya pada orang ramai.

mungkin untuk orang tahu yang dia hebat. dan mungkin untuk tutup kekurangannya.

nanti lama-lama, orang naik meluat, macam mana?

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kalau tak ada sifat malu, atau kurang sifat malu, susah jugak.

terlalu berani untuk melakukan sesuatu dan tidak malu melakukannya di hadapan orang. pedulikan apa orang nak kata, katanya.

kalau begitu, biarlah berpada. jangan sampai menimbulkan fitnah orang. nanti berlarutan sampai jadi cerita.

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sekian nasihat nenek untuk hari ini.iyelah.nenek lah.sebab nasihat orang macam dah berpengalaman sangat kan.

walking down memory lane

2011-08-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

last year,while i was working in johor, i was given the chance to volunteer at an orphanage there.
i teach mathematics to form 1 students,every sunday morning at 9.
i was only a few times late,but most of the classes,i was the one who'll be waiting for the students to come.
oh.and there were two of us,me and a friend of mine.

at first,classes were held every week,until it was sya'ban.
these orphans,they were so fully occupied,even busier than me,i would say.

"cikgu,minggu depan tak ada kelas.ada jemputan"
"cikgu,boleh tak saya keluar awal?mak saya datang"
"cikgu,minggu depan ada perlawanan bola sepak"
soccer match,jemputan,bersilih ganti.

we gave them homeworks.just less than a page long.and we gave them a week to finish them.
but they didn't do it.
and sometimes,they would be an hour late,just to make sure they have the ample time to iron their clothes,since petang tu ada jemputan.

and it disturbed me.
ok.honestly,only a couple of students in the class are bright.
the rest?i rest my case.
we even had to guide them to solve the math question one-to-one,even after we showed the solution on the whiteboard.

but then,that is no the highlighted issue.
the preparation for the students to go for jemputan is far more important than tuition class.
sudahlah kelas hanya seminggu sekali,2 jam sahaja.itu pun dijadikan excuse untuk memenuhi jemputan makan daripada vip-vip.

during one meeting,the pengetua showed us the grades of the students.
yes,there are improvements.
there was this student of ours,in the class,she managed to get a b+ from d.
but sure,good things should be maintained.

and then came all the cuti lah,apa lah.
we teachers are the ones who kept calling the administrators inquiring whether class would be held or not.

i havent heard about them for a long time,since i decided to further my study.
i hope they're doing well now.

for those vips out there,if you are to help those kids,
do not just feed them with food.
but also feed them with knowledge,as it goes a long way.

cuaca panas.otak panas.hati pun panas.

2011-08-17T15:14:00.000+08:00

my roommate and i was talking about marriage. the kind of marriage we imagine ours will be.
dang.i wrote exactly the same topic somewhere sometime before here. what to do. pompuan.

i told her that i just want a small ceremony after akad nikah.
and maybe a small kenduri, just enough to feed one's stomach for a few hours. bihun goreng maybe.
tak ada sesi ambil gambar tukar baju berpasang-pasang.

so that means a small invitation will do.
bermaksud, i dont have to invite hundreds and hundreds of people. ikut kemampuan.
right? kalau dah tengah belajar, mampu apanya nak buat majlis?

'then kenapa nak buat majlis kalau tak mampu?tak payahlah kahwin dulu!'

that's a must have question kalau saya cakap saya nak kahwin.

i dont have to elaborate here. banyak lagi blog lain yang cerita pasal kebaikan khitbah, nikah gantung.
i dont intend to berceramah.

but what will happen if i decided to menikah, and invited only a few of my friends over.
sebab tak cukup duit.
and then when some of my uninvited friends know about this, they'll go 'tak ada angin tak ada ribut tetiba dah nikah.what actually happened?'

kalau yang bernikah kecil-kecilan diam-diam tu pakai eg. tudung labuh dan pasangannya pakai songkok aji, they'll say nothing.
meanwhile, kalau yang pakai tudung tak berapa nak labuh dan pasangannya pun tak pernah pakai songkok dan kerjanya asek je ke hulu ke hilir berdating, they'll say something.

jadi, mestikah wedding tu kena besar and planned a year earlier supaya orang tak kata pasangan yang bernikah itu bernikah sebab perempuan itu dah terlanjur?

sometimes i feel like cursing the celebrities for making glamorous wedding ceremonies sampaikan orang yang tak berkemampuan pun sanggup berhutang sebab nak konon-konon glam masa kahwin.
ye lah. kahwin tu sekali seumur hidup kan?

what happens to orang yang kerjanya asek je sambung belajar dan belajar yang belum lagi ada pendapatan sendiri tapi nak bernikah? ye lah.umur dah lanjut. berkawan dah lama. kerjanya tiap-tiap tahun asek je pergi wedding orang.

nak mengelakkan maksiat ye? apekata pergi break up dulu, esok dah habis belajar, dah kerja, cari balik boipren dulu tu, terus kahwin? takdelah maksiat bagai.
get real. do you really think that is logic, and an assurance that nothing worse will happen?

haih. ni marah kat sape ni? dah pergi baca jurnal sana.

calling all muffin experts!

2011-08-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

THIS IS SERIOUS

I need help. I found this apple muffin recipe on the internet. Tried it as if my hands can work wonders.

First trial: kantoi. Dia macam...berat.

Second trial, using a different recipe: kantoi. still berat. dan kecut.

1st trial punya outcome.

2nd trial punya outcome.

Soalan saya berbunyi begini:
1) Kenapa muffin saya berat, tak macam muffin kat kenirojes? kalau dah 2 resepi berlainan saya pakai pun kantoi jugak, there must be something wrong with my technique.konon.any advise?
2) Camane nak kurangkan pengecutan muffin lepas bakar? Dahlah mengecut, lepas tu melembab. And tiada crust. Any advise?
3) Kalau baca dalam website joy of baking tu kan, dia kata suh fill 2/3 atau 3/4 mangkuk tu. Tapi langsung lah! tepi2 tak naik pun.tengah je. Dahlah excited masa tengah2 dia tu merekah. Kusangka panas hingga ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengahari. Any advise?

If you feel like helpin or advising me, can you please please pretty please email me at dmisslizzy@gmail.com?

Thank you and happy fasting!

what i think

2011-08-13T13:51:00.002+08:00

i have some pretty clear ideas over my justifications of certain things in life.not saying they are 100% true.but let's say it is one form of a brain exercise for my almost washed-out brain. and i may want to keep this forever so that i know how many of my brain cells have evolved in making my life more meaningful. and oh, there may be some 'ouch!' here and there. so i apologize. but do read those with an open mind okay peeps?

1) why i don't think lepaking after futsal is not the best idea for some people.
i don't say that it is not a good idea (to play safe). it's probably a good idea to mingle since we're meeting friends in a large crowd, reminiscing good old days in the healthiest state of mind and body. but what actually happens during the whole period of lepaking? you burnt some calories sooo hard during futsal, and you gained them back by eating roti telur and teh tarik. worse thing could happen, esp to those with risk of cardiovascular disease - family history, lifestyle, eating pattern. that's a good kickstart by losing those fat during play, but then when your body was busy doing their burning thingy, you introduce their good old friends - the fat you consumed. and there's another good friend - cigarette. and then came the long hours of chitchatting before u came home late, slept late, woke up late being not productive wasting the whole morning sleeping yada yada. boyfriends and husbands and friends of boyfriends and husbands, understand the females before saying they're controlling your life. they are helping you to gain your consciousness since you lost yours.

2) why i think SOME branded stuffs are worth buying
designer's clothes, shoes, handbags? worth buying IF ONLY you can afford one. I don't mean only sons and daughters of the rich ppl can buy them. you work hard, you save your money so that in the end of the month, you can buy your dream blouse, shoes, or handbags. It is not wrong, because it is YOUR money and you earn it. No one can tell you it's wrong, and if they do, they might be jealous of you. Simple. This became an issue for me when (1) you use your parents money to buy your dream branded stuffs, and (2) you spent all or most of your monthly saving for those stuffs, without any saving for the rainy days, and (3) you even have to loan for it. (cars and houses are not included. it took forever to save all your money to buy assets in cash).
personally, some branded items eg undergarments, watches etc are worth buying. despite having to buy them 4 or 5 times in a year, you can save up by buying only once or twice in a year. plus the comfortableness too. (my sisters and i enjoy buying some items and we only have to buy it once a year, unless we want more of it, which is not necessary)

3) why i think having a business is essential
i know my friends and i are still young at age. many of us may think that it is still too early to talk about business. but there are some of them who are really into this matter. yes, true that we need to start young. so that we will have time for failure, and time to get up once again and rebuild and improvise what needed to be improvised. for me, having a business is not only for extra cash to spend, but for my children if somehow, global stagflation occurs. and if (God forbid) my children are destined to be not so successful in the path they have chosen, they still have something functioning to work on, for them and for their kids. having a property plays the same role, but it is quite hard to earn one these days.

4) why i think high CGPAs don't really mean much to me
I don't say high CGPAs are not good. They work really well especially when you have the whole package with you - the ability to persuade, the ability to get technical jobs done, and the ability to communicate with different type pf people. I was not a bright student. my cgpa is a little above average. but i was, and still am proud of myself because i got hired the moment i left university. let's look at this at the bright side, what happened to me at that time. I struggled so that i can keep up with my grades (i even flunked some papers and repeated one), and at the same time, i was active in some extra curricular activities. what my interviewer saw among the certificates i enclosed during interview was only the letter i received regarding one time i got selected to represent the country for one program. my cgpa? as long as they are not poor. go ask anyone in the industry, what do they feel about grades, if you don't believe me. but high CGPAs mean a lot when you're getting yourself into the research and academic field. but you still need communication skills, as you don't want your students to sleep in class while you talk.

that's all for now lah.too much complaining nanti muntah pulak.batal puasa.tata

drinking while swimming.ok tajuk sukahati

2011-08-11T17:18:00.000+08:00

rutin normal seorang pelajar:

bangun pagi - punch card - masuk lab - buat labwork/ thesis writing - baca jurnal - balik rumah tidur - sambung pergi lab/ jumpa supervisor - punch card - masak makan malam/ buka puasa - pergi terawih/ baca jurnal/ buat writing/ study - tidur

rutin tambahan bagi seorang pelajar pasca siswazah yang membiayai pengajian sendiri dan masih menunggu claim untuk biasiswa sementara menghabisi harta ibu bapa yang tidak seberapa sebab balance duit gaji masa kerja dulu dah habis:

(masih mengekalkan rutin-rutin di atas)

tambahan: ambil order buat kuih raya!

kukis yang dah siap. asalnya itu adalah meja makan. tapi sebab meja buat kerja dah penuh dengan segala macam khazanah, buat kerja pun kat meja makan.

sampel kukis yang dah siap pack.

close up sampel kukis berserta nombor tipon untuk dihubungi.

ambil kesempatan promote bisnes kat blog sendiri.harharhar.

P/S: KAMI JUGA MENGAMBIL TEMPAHAN CUPCAKES DAN MUFFINS YE! :)

wira konglomerat

2011-08-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

Pagi tadi semasa membalut baju untuk diposkan ke kampung halaman, saya ternampak satu kolum di nst.
Ala, kolum di mana dia tunjukkan muka-muka orang kenamaan pergi ke function.
Kadang-kala ada majlis penyampaian anugerah, kadang-kala ada upacara keraian (adakah perkataan keraian itu valid?)

Wajah-wajah itu memang pada kebanyakan masa, saya tak kenal.
Tapi memang kelihatan kayak (bahasa indonesia sekali!) wajah orang kaya.
Rantai berlian, wajah berhias, baju cantik dan mahal-mahal, kadang kala seksi.
Rambut bersanggul, berwarna warni, bersepit di sana sini.
Anak dan emak bergambar bersama, suami dan isteri bergambar bersama.

Darjat kamu sungguh tinggi di kalangan kamu.
Tapi, bagaimana darjat kamu di akhirat kelak.

Itu untuk orang yang berpangkat di dunia.
Sekurang-kurangnya dia berhasil dan berjaya dalam satu dunia.
Bagaimana dengan orang seperti saya, yang di dunia tak adalah berjaya mana.
Di akhirat pula, Tuhan saja yang tahu.
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Suffering from diarrhea is, literally, a pain in the ass.
Especially during the month of Ramadhan, where you feel nauseated throughout the day.
The sink in the washroom is, at the moment, your best friend, if only you are allowed to puke.
But wait, it's already afternoon, and by throwing up and vomiting, your fast doesn't count.

So, I'd rather bare the pain, and the minyak angin was my best friend, making sure I won't vomit.
So that I don't have to add up to the ganti-puasa account.

Kamon lah diarrhea! please lah go to someone who really really really in deep need of ponteng puasa!

remaking

2011-08-05T14:12:00.000+08:00

if only doing paperworks can be as beautiful as this:

but the truth is, doing paperworks are, sadly, looks somehow as mind-boggling as this:

ceritanya cenggini:

just about last week, after a few months of hibernating and living hell (read:writing thesis), i have came up with a solution: tukar program pengajian.

the problem is, i kinda worried that, the lagging in my research is caused by another person.
but, to remove the person and gantikan dia with someone else would cause me in lots of troubles.
so, by thinking that if saya tukar course, i can tukar everything in a glimpse.

mulalah episod setiap hari buat istikharah bagai.
encik boifren pula dah (mungkin) naik jemu menasihatkan, "awak kalau nak buat istikharah, kena options yang ada dalam otak awak tu 50-50, barulah boleh buat.kalau awak dah determine nak pilih yang mana, tu dah lain dah tu".

ok, then comes all those emails lah, sms-es and unanswered phone calls.
(i admit, for precaution steps, i printed out all emails and filed them.just in case.hoho)

but then,it's all about flaws.i have a weakness.if someone have strong hujah against my idea,i will easily fall for it.deng!

kesudahannya,saya masih lagi berdaftar sebagai pelajar MSc in Nutrition by research.
apa yang bertukar hanyalah, sedikit modifikasi dalam kerja saya.
dan saya sudah mula bergerak bekerja kembali.
and it feels good.i dont like to be kept in the shade,not knowing what to do.
and i will definitely finish it within 2 years time.

barulah ada semangat nak blogging!

baca sokkabar la weh

2011-06-02T16:36:00.000+08:00

satu ketika dahulu,saya suka baca surat khabar.
tak kisahlah surat khabar biru ke,hijau ke,merah ke.semua saya baca.
cerita presiden amarika baru saya baca.cerita kapal kena hijack saya baca.
cerita orang tarik beg keluar akademi pantasia saya baca.
even cerita kenaikan harga getah kelapa sawit bijih timah yang tak ada kena mengena pun saya baca.
tak cukup kertas surat khabar,saya baca sokkabar online.
dan juga orang yang lepas baca surat khabar pastu sambung cerita dalam blog.
dan juga berita di yahu dan hotmel.
alaaaa.senang cerita semua saya baca lah.

walaupun masa tu sibuk dihambat masa,melayan exam tesis esaimen segala.
daily bachelor's degree student's ritual.

la ni,jangankan kertas sokkabar.kalendar pun saya tak tengok.
mujur la bawah hujung kiri kompite ni ada time and date.
kalau tak,time and date tu hanya digunakan bila nak book tiket wayang.

kenapa perlu baca sokkabar?

ada orang memang suka baca sokkabar.menambah ilmu katanya.haaa baguslah.
ada orang, baca sokkabar sebab bila nak berborak ngan orang yang berkepentingan, time tu lah segala ilmu yang dipelajari dari sokkabar sangat berguna. (been there,done that).

you see, dalam thesis writing, sokkabar takdelah seberguna mana.
lagi berguna time magazine yang yahudi punya tu dan juga jurnal-jurnal yang sangat membosankan tu.
ok.ada sesiapa yang tak merasakan baca jurnal itu tak membosankan? hmm....lantak korang lah.

dok usha-usha website halal jakim,lama jugaklah kami tengok senarai restoran dan produk yang dijamin halal.
maklumlah,semenjak dua menjak ni,pendek kata semua makanan jadi tak halal.
dalam malas-tak-malas-nak-layan tu,tersentap jugak lah dalam hati ni.
kalau betul lah semua benda-benda tu tak halal,
agak-agak ada jugak 7-8 ekor babi dimakan suda sepanjang hidup ni.

working in an environment where you're the only muslim there,at such a very young age,
it is very hard to say 'no' to your bosses.
tapi kalau anda bukan begitu,it's good.very good.

i was weak then,and struggling to timbul tak nak tenggelam.
mana bos bawak makan,saya ikut.
ok.bukanlah bos suruh makan,saya terus makan.

ada one time tu,kami makan di satu restaurant yang agak famous la.sebab ada talk kat situ.
i had the nerve to see the restaurant manager, alone, and asked whether the food served is halal or not.

'halal halal.semua halal.you do not worry.even the *** also ate here' he replied.
setelah berasa yakin,barulah saya akan ke meja makan,joining the others,while they stared at me.
yakin lah.kalau dah pemimpin beragama islam pun makan kat situ,maknanya halal lah kan?

that was then.
as you grew up,you'll have the guts and the brain to say yes and no to things you suppose,is good to you.
it's a matter of choice.

ha.apolaie.bye bye.

blurry

2011-05-14T11:18:00.001+08:00

Adakah semua student master di malaysia (yang sedang membuat wiriting) mempunyai karakteristik seiras?
-tak baca surat khabar, lantas tak tahu apa yang berlaku di dunia luar?
-tak bersosial
-tak berapa kisah kewujudan televisyen
-tak tahu pun minggu ni dah minggu keberapa entah mhraja lawak
-tak tahu harini hari apa.

bukan apa,kita perlu set up satu benchmark.untuk menentukan adakah kita berada pada fasa yang betul.
dan untuk memastikan kita hidup dalam rutin harian yang normal.

siang malam pagi petang dok usha jurnal.sampai mabuk.
nasib baik ada beberapa bahan hiburan dalam kompite seperti dragonball.
kalau tak,mati kekerasan.

ape ntah tadi nak tulis.dah lupa.haih~

oh oh.baru ingat.
masa memula baca wall post kt fesbuk pasal orang simbah asid tu,
serius saya ingat kawan saya dok perli orang2 yg pakai baju tak cukup kain persis kena simbah asid.
keywords: mangsa adalah perempuan sahaja, kawasan shopping complex

mana tak saya fikir camtu?dasar kera sumbang!haha

whining and dining

2011-04-16T12:41:00.000+08:00

yes this will sound pathetic, but fesbuk is my life.
it's sad, but it's true.and it's true to soo many people.

i woke up,then i turn to fesbuk.
i'm off to bed,but before that i will turn to fesbuk.
it's not like i'm sharing, or liking, or commenting each time i turn to it.
but i will read every single thing people write on the status feed.
who bought a new phone,who got engaged,who watched what,who listened to who,who likes who,who hates who,and who got into a relationship with who,and the list goes on and on.

it's something moving.i mean,it moves me.emotionally.
by waking up solemnly, they day will be brighten up by reading some inspiring articles shared by some friends.
then the cursing and hating starts when somebody shared some sad or tragic war or murder or tragic news.
then the smile happens.when reading some lovey wall posts,especially those posted by loved ones.
then the sad face emerges.reading multiple status updates shared by the same person, saying how sad or cruel or torturing life (or love,perhaps) is towards him/her.
somehow,the emergence of the sad face does relate to sharing the emotional downturn of the person, but most of the time, the sad face also represents the annoyance of reading the same thing, only in different set of selection of words, of some teenagers pouring him/her heart out, maybe because bertepuk sebelah tangan?

don't get me wrong.been there,done that.
but it's a place where your friends read to know the happenings to their ghettos.
not all people willing to listen to every inch of your whinings.

ok this has turn out to be a whining episode itself.
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sharing is caring

2011-04-05T11:53:00.002+08:00

semalam kaki kena gigit semut jahat masa nak jemur baju.
sampai harini rasa gatalnya.
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pagi-pagi dah buka fesbuk.most recent rituals.baca semua updates oleh kawan-kawan.

dan mata saya tersangkut pada satu artikel yang seorang kawan share.
(kalau nak baca sendiri,boleh klik kat sini.tapi kalau nak baca sikit-sikit, bawah ni saya share sebarang dua.

kisahnya bermula apabila saudara ni dapat satu soalan daripada seorang saudaranya:

biasalah.dilema remaja-remaja.dilema orang bercinta,tapi belum berkahwin.
merisaukan 'how bad will it go dalam bercinta-cinta ni?'.

yang baru kenal,risaukan takut nanti berpegangan tangan.
yang berpegangan tangan,risaukan nanti bersentuh-sentuhan.
yang bersentuh-sentuhan,risaukan jadi perkara yang tak sepatutnya.

teringat masa saya di mrsm dulu.
antara perkara yang paling ditakuti untuk students yang 'bercouple' (as they call it that time), adalah public marriage.
maknanya, mana-mana couple yang dah kantoi ni (kantoi maknanya orang dah tau diorang ni two lovebirds la,bukan kantoi tangkap basah ke apa),akan 'dikahwinkan' dalam satu upacara di khalayak ramai, mungkin bertujuan untuk mewujudkan perasaan malu di kalangan mereka ini supaya tak 'couple' lagi dah lepas tu.

masa tu saya berboifren sudah,tapi bukanlah dalam sekolah yang sama.
jadi saya tidak merasakan debaran bercinta secara senyap-senyap itu.
dan seingat saya,public marriage itu hanyalah sekadar propa saja.
mungkin untuk menakut-nakutkan students.

mungkin ada orang setuju, mungkin ada orang tidak setuju.
tapi,ada orang kata,budak-budak belasan tahun ni dah tak boleh tegur elok-elok dah.
kena kasi tunjuk kat muka diorang,baru senang diorang faham.

tapi,tegur pun sudah,tunjuk pun sudah.
kenapa 'pengajaran' itu masih tidak sampai ke hati mereka?
apa yang kurang kat sini?

jadi,bakal-bakal ibu dan bakal-bakal bapa sekalian,
esok-esok bila datang masa anda,cabaran untuk mendidik anak anda mungkin lebih hebat lagi.
camne nak buat tu?

part ni yang paling saya suka sekali baca.

Kamu panggil kamu golongan kebenaran? Mengajak kepada kebaikan? Maka kenapa kamu mencela-cela, menghina-hina, memulaukan mereka yang memerlukan lagi teguran kamu, nasihat kamu, bimbingan kamu?

sangat terkesan di situ.

betapa sebenarnya islam sangat meminta kita kepada berbuat baik.

nak tegur orang yang buat dosa pun kena berbaik-baik.

win-win situation.kan?

but it is still a challenge.

tegur orang lain satu hal.

camane nak tegur anak sendiri kalau anak sendiri dah buat dosa?

dalam nak menahan kemarahan tu,sambil nak tegur anak sendiri tu?

mungkin anak sendiri.mungkin isteri sendiri.mungkin ibu bapa sendiri.

mampu tak nak buat semua tu?

sangat jahil sebenarnya kita ini kan?

start anew

2011-04-04T18:24:00.000+08:00

some changes are good.

it's like changing the ground you're stepping on,new soil and new fertilisers.

mr badiuz,i know u like this.

knocked out

2011-04-03T22:30:00.001+08:00

i am down.down to the lowest point on the ground.perhaps between my feet and the ground i'm stepping on.

i was,once upon a time,a very strong person.
when i meet someone who's outstanding,hell i will do better.
i have no fear,i define achievements in my own line of pride.
and yes,i really feel that i am one of the luckiest person to be alive,born with strength and motivation.

but now,even when seeing some strangers with something to be proud of,i feel ridiculously envy.
so ridiculous i'm doing nothing about it.

i guess,i was so early on my log phase,and now it's starting to decline.
my graph is devilishly smiling.
and everything i do,it's not even working.

being so down and demoralised,it's worse than hell.

the art of losing hope

2011-04-01T22:41:00.000+08:00

the level of difficulty of living life is different from one human being to another.
a high school girl may find it hardest to struggle for academic excellence and being a jolly teenager at the same time.
a college graduate may find it hardest to get the perfect job and owning all first assets at the same time.
a pregnant mother may find it hardest to go through her daily working life with a big belly.

and what keeps them holding on? HOPE.

hopes are what keeping us holding on to what we are believing in.alongwith faith.

but what happens when HOPE does not really matter any longer?

do the maths

2011-03-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

eh what's up dengan kisah spam kat facebook?
kenape org semua dok cakap pasal tu,tapi ai langsung tak tahu apape?
adekah saya sudah tidak as addicted to facebook as before?hoyeah!
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dalam sehari ada 24 jam kali 60 minit kali 60 saat.
dengan mengklasifikasikan diri saya sebagai akan berfikir ketika mulut berhenti berkata-kata,
seharusnya 24 jam itu boleh dibahagikan kepada 4 komponen utama iaitu:
1) tidur
2) bercakap
3) berfikir
4) bercinta
ok yang lain-lain tu kira sub kepada 4 komponen tu la.ala sembahyang tu kan bercinta dengan Tuhan..so masuk lah dalam komponen number empat.pandai-pandai lah.

jadi,jika satu perempat bahagian digunakan untuk berfikir, maknanya enam jam tu berfikir sahaja.
katalah satu buah fikiran dapat dihasilkan dalam masa tiga puluh saat,bermakna dalam enam jam..
(tekan kalkulator kat hempon)

jadinya lebih kurang 720 buah fikiran dapat dihasilkan dalam sehari.
yang mana,jika direalisasikan ke dalam bentuk fizikal,mampu menjana perubahan stagnan kepada gaya hidup student yang di ambang kejayaan dan kegagalan.
dan juga,jika kesemua 720 buah fikiran itu dimaterialised kan ke dalam bentuk perkataan,

kenapa lah aku tak tahu apa nak cerita kat sini every time dah log in? choiii

sekian.

sakit perut

2011-03-22T08:09:00.000+08:00

jangan biasakan sangat perut dengan makanan,nanti susah padahnya.

hahah.

harini baru la rasa lega sikit.sebab da 2 hari berturut-turut kejenya asek je muntah lepas makan.pantang tak makan ubat tahan muntah, sure muntah.dengan ubat-ubat gastrik sekali keluar.tekak pun da perit dah.maklumlah,asid dalam perut semua dok kena humbang keluar sekali.

ha.macam tu lah.bila kita punya perut dah develop sistem pemakanannya sendiri, jus gaster tu (asid perut) akan automatically being secreted timely.jadi bila sekali kita skip makan, dia keluar.sekali skip makan, dia keluar.lama-lama dia penuh.bila makanan nak masuk,dia tolak.dan akhirnya,dengan dia-dia sekali keluar.

dan bila dah macam tu,dah takleh nak buat apa lagi dah.pergi klinik lah jawabnya.

mendapat lah penyakit orang mengandung: mual, pening, loya, sakit perut, takde selera.etc etc.
seksa yang teramat.ni kalau 9 bulan camni tak tau lah camne gayanya.
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marilah bercinta!

mesti ada antara korang yang suka tengok lotr kan?
perasan tak bila elves tu berborak sesama sendiri,bunyi-bunyian dia macam daun berguguran je.macam sweet je kan.
kalau dapat bercinta pakai bahasa elves macam best je kan?hihi

yeah.kita ada jawapannya.gunakan, elves dictionary!

nak try? g type http://www.nevrast.net/a.html.

ha.cepat-cepat.pergi try sana.
oh dan make sure,habiskan sekolah dulu ye,barulah boleh bercinta!

taata!

beli tudung pule

2011-03-17T12:28:00.000+08:00

kalau hati dah basah,buat apa pun semua sambil berangan je kan.

kalau tengah buat presentation slides,kejap-kejap check wall boifren sendiri kat fesbuk,padahal sepuluh dua puluh kali tengok pun tak bergerak-gerak sebutir habuk pun.

kejap-kejap tengok hempon kot-kot ada sms.padahal boifren tade kredit.ekeke.

pastu pantang keluar lagu yang tak sesuai dengan mood sikit je,terus bukak playlist tukar lagu lain yang lebih menepati mood cintan cintun.

lepastu bila tett tettt fon bunyi menandakan ada text from encik boifren selepas beliau mentop-up,terus cargas melompat ke katil sambil reply sms dengan hati yang berbunga-bunga.ahahaha

padahal umur dah suku abad dan ni dah masuk boifren yang keberapa entah tak tahu.
haih.perempuan...perempuan...
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semalam kami pergi ke shopping complex terdekat nak cari tudung indon.
ala...yang camni tu...(sbb tak tau panama dia)

i lukis sendiri tau ini gambar.hahaha.gila bangga.

masuk kedai keluar kedai,semua jual dengan harga rm20 ke atas.

kata kawan: ada.haritu aku beli 8 ringgit je tau! dah jom kita pergi pkns.

lepas tu kami pun keluar dengan penuh harapan nak cari tudung yang murah.

kat luar tu ada kedai yang tutup pakai kanvas je.ala macam pasar malam tu.

tengok2,dia jual sepuluh ringgit saje.maka seperti pelanggan di kedai sotong celup tepung pantai mengabang telipot,kami mengirai-ngirai (hampir) kesemua tudung di situ.sambil tokey kedai elok berdengkur.

abang,nasib baik kami baik tau bang.kami kejutkan abang elok2 bila nak bayar tu.

saya bukan apa,saya takut je nak kejut abang pakai tepuk2 tangan abang.nanti batal air smayang.

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sekian

ha.nak sangat pakai google maps.

2011-03-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

i received a text message from a cousin of mine.
dia suruh ambil dia dekat driving school,minta hantar dia balik.

menyedari yang saya ni baru je 3 bulan kat bangi ni, maka cergas pergi usha kat google maps.
cari punya cari punya cari tiadalah berjumpa itu driving school.

"jalan bangi lama tahu tak?dia kat jalan bangi lama,"
"ha.tau tau.jalan nak pergi putrajaya tu kan?"
"ha,"
"oh.driving school tu kat dengkil kan?"
"ha.kat dengkil"

maka,cargasssss sekali saya start enjin kereta dan mula menuju ke so-called jalan menuju ke putrajaya.sampailah saya ke simpang ini:

tudia.simpang yang nak pergi ke maktab perguruan islam tu ha.pastu nampak signboard:

maka saya pun turn left masuk ke kawasan kampung entah ceruk mana.

maka saya call kawan.

kata kawan: dah.dah.kau patah balik lah senang.entah mana-mana ceruk dah kau masuk tu!

ok.kenapa saya tak pakai gps?

inilah sobabnye ha. sebab lepas key in dalam gps,dia kata none found.

sudahnya saya patah balik,ikut jalan yang kawan bagitahu,dan akhirnya jumpa.

moral of the story:

1) tak payah lah asyik je nak mengadap gugelmep ngan ji pi ess. dengar cakap kawan lagi berpekdah.

2) dah nama merantau kat tempat orang tu,pandai2 lah carik jalan ye.

just keep swimming

2011-03-12T12:57:00.000+08:00

it's already middle of march.
in a student's calendar, it's already the end of the world.
assignments, presentations, modules, exams, thesis, jurnals, the list goes on and on until you're out of breath.

this morning i went swimming. it was a fine swimming session. because unlike usual, there were, normal people in the pool.

what do i mean as normal people?

usually i go swim later in the afternoon, like around 5 to 6 o'clock. there will be plenty of people there, ranging from kids to mothers and fathers.
there is a separate lady pool at that place, meaning that there are 3 pools: one large pool for anyone who enjoys the pleasure of swimming in a large area, one smaller pool, but enough to swim until u feel like u're a fish inside a human body, and a kid pool.

i am not an excellent swimmer, nor a good one. i stand on average scale.
i learnt how to swim, but having to work until 6 pm and having no desire to sport, i have not been swimming for ages. plus i misplaced my swimsuit. i dont know where it is. and i think, some mice hid it away from me. yes, there are plenty of mice in my home.
and now, since i bought a new swimsuit, and there's a swimming pool nearby, i think of going back swimming.

normal people include: people who are excellent swimmers, people who stand on average scale (like me), and people who don't know how to swim, and doing their best to swim or play in the water happily.

not-so normal people are: people who either know how to swim or not, but they play happily and LOUDLY in the pool wearing bright colours and screaming "OMG" out loud, over and over again when she found out she lost her contact lens.

now people, there's another location for that called, waterpark? ever heard of it?
just leave the swimming pool for us, the not so pandai swimmers to learn and practice.

yes. i'm kinda mad about this. because i just dont like people playing pillow fights inside a swimming pool. go find a bed.

a dream begins

2011-03-01T10:18:00.000+08:00

it has been ages since i last updated my posts.
being a postgraduate student means,you have to plan everything on your own.

if you want to suffer later on, then enjoying your free time to the fullest, is one of the symptoms.

i registered to complete masters by researchwork.
that means, little amount of classes, and plenty of free time (in the beginning).

nampak macam sangat free kan? but i tell you, i quit playing games on my computer.
i do watch sitcoms and movies, but not as frequently as before.
because each time i realise how hard it is to earn monthly pay, and then you use 'em all for study purpose (ye lah dulu pakai ptptn kot),
i will stop whatever nonsense i was doing at start focusin on other things.
chewah.
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i was an ex-student leader.that was when i was doing my bachelor's degree in one public university.
in fact, i was in the top 5 position.
reminiscing my so called golden days, i was a very active student.
so active, i even failed my food microbiology subject and resit it alongwith my juniors.
so active, i even flew to and fro putrajaya and my university like, every other week for meetings.
so active, i prefer to be in meetings and discussions about students' affair rather than being at home with my family.

and now,i am frequently wondering, are those sacrifices going to waste?

i like reading people's thoughts. especially related to politics, racial issues, and conspiracy theories (thanks to the late sidney sheldon and dan brown.haha).
don't misjudge my posts on my facebook profile.
i don't like re-post what people write unless i have something to say about it.or if i feel it can enlighten other people.

and each time i read, oh-why-students-nowadays-are-so-bookminded, or what-is-happening-to-our-country, or where-have-all-the-good-brains-gone issues, i feel such weight on my shoulders.
it's like i have one little part in those issues, and i have to aid in solving them.
i will feel some tense inside my head, and i will feel bad and started to think of some ways that i could help.
anddddd it will last for,like an hour,and then when i clicked on my hard drive folders ~~containing vast amount of movies~~, i will automatically forget about it. not by choice eh.

but i have figured out one direct solution.

i will finish my studies as soon as possible.
and get my dream job, a qualified lecturer.
and from there, i will route my contribution to my beloved countries and students.
that, i will have it planned and planted in my mind.

ok tak?

what's in the box for me?

2011-02-15T13:00:00.000+08:00

at the age of 25, one should already be equipped enough to plan for his or her entire life.
what to do.
when to start your career.
when to be fully established in your career.
when to start buying a car, buying a house.
when to get engaged, married, and have children.
when to upgrade your career, car, house, family, lifestyle.
when to retire.
when to make investment.
how to spend the entire life.

25, a quarter of a decade. that's a very long time.

"To date, the youngest Nobel Laureate is Lawrence Bragg, who was just 25 years old when he received the Nobel Prize in Physics with his father in 1915".

i'm 25, and my biggest accomplishments so far are? represented the country for a student's visit? selected as the valedictorian? being independent in most of my big actions in life?

that is not enough.come on syahirah.you can do better!

kenapa susah sangat nak update

2011-01-25T11:10:00.000+08:00

inilah yang saya dok buat tiap-tiap hari:

tank yang durjana.

sebab kau lah,aku sering tiada mood nak buat kerja lain.

hari-hari mesti nak kena kejar high score saje.

tapi harini saya telah membuat keputusan untuk tidak bermain dynomite lagi.

dah fed up.

jadi haruslah post di sini.as reminder.

encik cinta hati.anda harus sentiasa mengingatkan saya!

sekian.

p/s: puan professor sudah mula mencadangkan kami untuk menulis berkenaan pemakanan dan kesihatan di kolum-kolum dalam majalah atau akhbar.

kerana sebagai pelajar sarjana, seharusnya kami sudah boleh menyumbang kepada masyarakat.

berkenaan pemakanan sihat.

tapi dari gaya dia cadangkan tu, dah macam satu arahan pula.

aaaaaaa macam mana nak kasi artikel sendiri appear kat magazine ni?

aduyai~

lebam

2011-01-12T08:06:00.000+08:00

dalam kurang dari 15 jam dari sekarang, kami akan bertolak ke terengganu.
dah lama tak join handle team building ni. rasa nervous pulak.

kalau ditengokkan secara kasarnya, agak gila jugak lah. sambil belajar (dahlah baru start nak kenal dengan supervisor and other lecturers), sambil bekerja yang juga melibatkan aspek analitikal.

senang cakap, dengan assignment nya yang belum jalan lagi, terus setuju nak handle team building. padahal dan lebih dari setahun tak buat kerja macam ni.
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meh sini saya share pasal apa yang puan supervisor bagitau haritu.

kalau ada muscle pain, it's always ice.

for example: lari2 dalam rumah, lepas tu terhantuk dekat bucu meja, lebam. that shows that probably the muscle is bleeding inside. what do we use ice for? to stop the bleeding. make sense, right?

u dont have to use minyak panas for treatment like this. it might worsen the condition. minyak panas is the treatment used for...osteoarthritis. yang ada calcium deposits kat tulang dalam badan tu. senang. kalau doctor kata awak tak ada osteoarthritis, then next time awak terhantuk kat meja atau jatuh dan lebam-lebam, use only ice to that area. try and compare. Insya Allah, the ice treatment will make u better, faster.
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ok lah. kena cari pasal glucosamine dan condroitin. reading assignment untuk friday class. tata

cakap-cakap saja

2011-01-11T00:47:00.001+08:00

the walls are breaking in.

weekend yang penuh produktif.aspek keluarga, personal dan kerja.
dah mula masuk fasa tidur di siang hari dan berjaga di malam hari.
baru namanya student.
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how i imagine my wedding will be?

i am not so...creative in this.i dont imagine my wedding day as "rich" as any wedding i've been to.
i'm not imagining of wearing silk, or organza, or whatever expensive clothes they are wearing. in fact, i only know a few fabric names - cotton, and gorgette (is it spelled correctly?)

i dont have the imagination of my wedding filled with flowery hantaran. i dont imagine wearing 3 to 4 clothes in a day. i dont even imagine having to sit on the pelamin watching everybody eat and laugh with my sweat pouring from my forehead.

i dont imagine my wedding with a dj hosting it. i dont imagine my wedding having the silat or zapin dance or whatever. i dont imagine my wedding a long table for makan beradab. i dont even imagine having a 3 or 4-tier wedding cake with a small plastic miniature of the bride and groom on top of it.

i dont imagine seeing my friend come and go without my husband and i greeting them at the entrance. i dont imagine missing talking to every one of them. i dont imagine having my parents to greet people they dont know. i dont even imagine seeing some strangers wandering around the buffet line.

my wedding should have, my husband and i greeting every guests at the entrance, while my parents and family members talking to their friends they have invited along. my wish is to not missing every face coming to the glorious event. as host, what we should be wearing are simple cotton clothes so we dont sweat ourselves much. what's important is, people we invited come, we see them, we talk to them, and everyone is happy. it's a parade of love, friends meeting friends, not something that made us worry over breaking those piggy banks.

and yes, it is just an imagination. but not a rich one. jangan esok kalau wedding saya jadi benda lain, kena kutuk kaw kaw pulak ye. haha

(tadi baru ada seorang kawan im saya di fesbuk, tanya saya datang wedding dia ke tak)
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pagi tadi kawan saya ikut saya hantar sepupu saya ke stesyen bas. sepupu saya sudah lanjut usia, tapi masih belum berkahwin.

kawan saya kata: kau jangan jadi macam tu tau.
ye lah.umur dah 25.tapi?hmm.

mister brilliant

2011-01-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

dengan berani matinya hari itu i made a promise to my supervisor.

"nanti isnin i hantar questionnaire dekat puan ye,"

masa undergraduate dulu, questionnaire development took about, 2 months?

and now i'm planning to finish it in 2 days?

this is crazy.

dan hari ini adalah hari yang penuh aktiviti. mula dengan jogging di pagi hari. followed by cuci kereta.

petang cari quotation for puan supervisor. dan kemudian berlepakan.

so that leaves me 1 day to finish up the questionnaire. haha. padan muka.

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we had a small gathering in the evening. four of us.

i hate to be in a 'discussion' or chillax session or whatever u call it these days, yang membincangkan isu-isu serius secara berterusan.

i love to be a part of it. but i hate it when i don't even have a clue of what they are talking about.

and even i know some parts of it, i hate it when i don't know how to take part, when to interfere, or how to construct my ideas into tangible words so that i can somehow, relate to the excitement of the discussion.

so i was kinda...missing some points there when they were talking about, cars, royal families, politics, yada yada mainly current issues lah. u know lah, when guys got together. this is cerita kedai kopi upgraded version lah.

but somehow, there's something bothering me.

call me whatever, but i always believe that, no one in this world, knows everything about anything.

dan kebetulan pula, dalam perbincangan tadi, there was someone, who falls into the category i mentioned above.

from the beginning til the end, he was like, knows everything, technically, about every topic raised. (even for my topic-nutrition)..and that beats the shit out of me! he even disagree to one of the nutritional things being discussed.

saya cukup tak berkenan dengan orang macam tu.

i do respect people who are knowledgeable.

but these kind of people usually, they dont talk much.

the more u talk, the more mistakes u'll make.

or maybe i was wrong, and you are the kind of wise people who talks a lot and won't do mistakes.

ohhhh then u must be so unique.maybe the governemt should patent u as an intellectual property?

mi megi cepat dimasak sedap dimakan

2011-01-04T14:51:00.001+08:00

mari kita bercerita pasal megi mee aka instant noodles.

it is already known that instant noodles adalah tinggi dengan karbohidrat, tapi rendah vitamin, mineral dan serat.
(bolehlah nak cakap pasal instant noodles sebab saya tak makan megi, dan cuba untuk mengekalkannya).

megi ni, kalau korang dah masak sekali dengan kuahnya, amat tinggi kandungan sodiumnya iaitu garamnya.
kan ada serbuk-serbuk dan preservatives bagai yang dia letak dalam plastik transparent lah, aluminium lah tu kan.

tapi, instant noodles adalah vital untuk kehidupan seseorang yang tinggal di asrama.
kalau kau tak makan megi, maka apa yang dijumpai dalam kotak makanan hanyalah biskut, biskut dan biskut.
sihat habislah tu konon.

dan saya langsung tiada bantahan jika anda mahu makan megi. hari-hari makan megi pun boleh kalau anda mahu, selagi anda bukan anak, suami, adik mahupun cucu saya.

TAPI, yang saya kisah sangat-sangat adalah,

kalau nak makan megi tu, boleh tak bersivik sikit.
takyah lah nak bagitahu satu blok yang anda tengah masak megi, dengan mengetoskan air tos megi anda keluar tingkap.

anda tak sedar ke bunyi air yang splash keluar tu macam bunyi air terjun?
dan tipulah anda tak nampak baju orang yang dijemur kat ampaian tu.

pergi sinki dik.SINK!YANG ADA KAT WASHROOM TU!

ni lah yang orang kata belajar tinggi-tinggi tapi otak letak kat tapak kaki.
sekian.wassalam.

gila kentang:episod broga-ulu yam-remis

2011-01-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

it's a last minute decision lah kot.

the three of us decided untuk join hiking trip to broga hill.

only the day before baru kitorang practice nak build up stamina dengan berjogging (yang tak berapa nak jogging sangat tu.haha)

below are the pictures of view from the top.

oh.dan ini.bukti kitorang sampai pantai remis.
ok.ada baaaaanyak lagi pantai lain kat malaysia ni.
pergi lah carik pantai lain.

super duper lousy food service.
nasik dah habis bukan nak bagitau. kitorang dah lah lapar nak mati lepas tu tunggu macam takde kedai lain yang kitorang boleh pergi.bila tanya kat kaunter order dah sampai ke belum, kata dah sampai.bukan nak kasitau nasik dah habis.dem.

air dah lah salah buat.tapi takpe.kami orang baik-baik.kami bukan along kami cuma nak tolong.kitorang pun order air lain.
kalau lah takde yang menahan,memang dah blah lah tadi.
lousyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(geram lah tu konon.haha)

dah.penat.nak tidur.kaki sakit.tata.

sekian, wassalam.

ayam yeah!

2010-12-31T12:43:00.001+08:00

it's december 31st. the last day untuk kalendar masihi ni.

tengah baca-baca blog, teringat pulak apa yang saya dah blogkan last year.

december 2009

kecoh la jugak bila seorang student ipta kat msia ni kutuk ipta dia dan jugak kawan dia kutuk orang melayu.kecoh masa tu,siap budak tu terpaksa tutup fb dia.sudahnya sampai ke lani fb dia takde.mungkin dah tukar ke nama lain kot.kasihan lah.kerana pulut santan binasa dik.mintak-mintak kau dengan kawan kau tu dah graduate and masuk alam pekerjaan dan hidup harmoni dengan kawan-kawan melayu kau dik oiii.

december 2008

masa tu musim latihan industri. kekusutan dan baru mahu mengenal alam pekerjaan. takde apa yang menarik pun, kecuali pemergian brad pitt saya iaitu hamster saya ke alam barzakh. beliau adalah sangat comel dan berbulu kembang.

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for the following entry, all pictures and descriptions are taken from professional cooking sixth edition by wayne gisslen. published by john wiley & sons in 2007. i totally have no right of ownership of these pictures below. the video is from youtube.

trussing the chicken, satu kaedah yang memberi 2 faedah apabila memanggang ayam:

1 - supaya ayam itu masak dengan rata. kaki dan kepak yang terdedah akan masak dengan lebih cepat berbanding bahagian lain.

2 - lebih cantik.haha

(rasanya macam first time embed.nak adjust size pun tak reti)

ok.kalau agak-agak malas nak usha video kat atas tu, bawah ni ada gegambar. bolehlah try kalau nak:

nombor satu:

halakanlah bahagian atas ayam tu ke arah kita. lipat kepak tu ke belakang. jangan patahkan pulak ye.

nombor dua:

kepitkan kaki ayam tu ke badan dia. suruh dia duduk diam-diam.

nombor tiga:

ambil tali (tali yang putih yang selalu kita buat ikat parcel tu pun ok.jangan tali rafia pulak ye) dan letakkan di bahagian bawah badan yang belakang. atas sikit daripada bahagian ekor ayam tu.ala-ala ketak tulang punggung lah.

nombor empat:

silangkan tali ke atas. make sure dia tarik kat hujung tulang kaki tu.

nombor lima:

masukkan tali tadi ke bahagian bawah tulang kaki tu pulak (tadi kat atas kan?) supaya dia membelit kaki tu. kemudian ketatkan.

nombor enam:

tarik hujung tali tadi tu, kemudian bawa ke arah leher ayam tu. tarik slow-slow, jangan ganas-ganas sambil gunakan ibu jari untuk menekan bahagian dada tu ke bawah. pun slow-slow jugak.

nombor tujuh:

ikat lah tali tu. apa lagi. ikat ketat-ketat tau.

nombor lapan:

selitkan tali tu dekat belakang tulang tengkuk ayam tu. supaya tali tu tak terlepas ke belakang. ye lah. kan at least ada sikit tulang yang tertinggal kan?

nombor sembilan:

tadaaaaaa! siap sedia untuk dibakar. yaribba yaribba!!

nampak macam senang kan? ha.dulu saya sampai nangis-nangis kena marah sebab salah buat okeh??

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it's not the end. it is just the beginning.

by winning the cup, it's a hell of a good ending eh?

let's just hope and pray and do the best in the year two thousand eleven.

happy new year! :)

things don't turn out to be as what we expected

2010-12-29T18:52:00.000+08:00

orang malaysia mana je yang tak cakap pasal bola sekarang ni?(cheh.memanglah.dah tentu kau punya environment semua lebih kurang umur kau je syahirah oiii)

kali terakhir saya tengok bola secara berjemaah di kedai makan adalah ketika world cup dua season yang lepas. tu pun sebab saya kerja kat kedai makan tu. kalau tak memang takde maknanya.

seronok memang seronok. walaupun saya bukanlah seorang peminat sukan yang sejati, tapi the heat and the excitement bila kita tonton beramai-ramai dan bersorakan secara berjemaah dan istiqamah tu memanglah terbaik.

dan malam ini saya nak ikut rakan-rakan pergi tengok bola kat kedai lagi.haha.
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hari ini merupakan hari pertama saya masuk ke kuliah. seronok, sebab dalam kelas tu ada 4 orang je. sepatutnya 5, tapi budak iran tu tak datang. tak tau lah pasaipa.

semasa di-introducekan oleh puan pensyarah kepada rakan-rakan yang dah enroll since last semester, puan pensyarah ada mention yang kami (saya dan seorang kawan saya) adalah "orang industri".

"orang industri" adalah satu terma yang sungguh besar maknanya.

ye lah.dulu kan.masa undergrad, bila lecturer mention yang somebody in the room adalah "orang industri", gila gempak weyhhh.

- mestilah orang tu lebih senior.
- mestilah orang tu lebih banyak pengalaman.
- mestilah orang tu hebat.
- mestilah orang tu pandai.
- dan mestilah orang tu agak berumur.

tapi, bila puan pensyarah mention kami sebagai "orang industri", rasa macam kelakar lah pulak. macam kami ni dah lama sangat je duduk dalam industri. padahal lebih sikit je dari setahun.

but whatever she told us in class, the scenarios, the issues, i can really relate them to whatever i have experienced through working.

sangat-sangat mengena.how she told us that kadang-kadang kita terikat dengan funding, how we expect something to produce such outcome but in turn, it didn't; how we DON'T put high expectations on something but it turned out extremely successful, how we tolak tepi our principal or whatever we know just for profit's sake, yada yada.

jadi, setahun lebih sikit pun, ianya sangat berguna dan sangat memberi erti lebih-lebih lagi bila anda kembali ke zaman belajar semula.

ok lah.nak pergi baca surat khabar.beli je,tapi bacanya tak.haha.

sekian, wassalam.

back to square

2010-12-28T10:34:00.000+08:00

class belum start.

padah buat research.class start lambat.sem ni ambil 3 subjek sahaja.sem depan, 2 subjek.ha.memanglah relax dulu.tengok lah nanti bila dah start buat research intensively,tunggang terbalik kau dibuatnya.

saya suka stick-on notes.saya memang suka membelinya dan menggunakannya.dan saya berangan nak buat dinding rumah saya penuh stick-on notes.seni lah tu konon.

aktiviti yang dirancangkan untuk hari ahad yang lepas.maklumlah,duduk dalam bilik sorang-sorang.maka tahap kebosanan tu tak boleh didescribekan dengan kata-kata.game tumblebugs dah habis.so sekarang tengah fokus on dynomite.hahahha.

gambar sebelum ini merujuk kepada hari pertama berada di dalam bilik secara menyeluruh.maka baru ada 1 note.gambar di atas ini merujuk kepada hari berikutnya.stick on notes dah mula bermigrasi ke lampu meja study. dan seterusnya ia akan bercambah dan membiak dan akan memonopoli kawasan lain pula seperti dinding, almari, kalendar, buku yada yada.

apa motif ini semua: ye.saya seorang yang sangat pelupa.maha pelupa.boleh tak?

contohnya, duit kereta yang harus dibayar pada 28hb setiap bulan (sebab sebelum ni 28hb adalah hari gaji).jadi,memanglah kita ingat yang 28hb je kena bayar.tapi dalam pada ingat ingat tu, kadang-kadang lupa jugak.tengok2 ada jugaklah drag sampai 5/6 haribulan.kadang-kadang bukan lupa tau...tapi buat-buat lupa.konon-konon terlalu occupied dengan benda lain.

hari ini merupakan hari pertama saya menelaah jurnal sedari pagi.hoh.rasa sungguh segar bugar sugar sekali.lepas je basuh dan jemur baju,terus bukak gugel skoler.nah.tengok gambo (gambo.wah.johor betul!) kat atas tu.berapa tab hah dibukaknya.(tak nampak).
mujurlah bonda saya computer illiterate.kalau dia nampak ni,sure dia menangis keriangan berguling-guling sampai tak boleh nak buat kerja (terharu lah konon).

hari ini sepatutnya hari penggajian terakhir saya.tapi saya tak tahu samada gaji saya dah masuk ke belum, dan yang paling penting, berapa yang masuk.
kan saya resign 8 hari awal daripada tarikh penggajian kan?

maka semalam saya telah sms seorang ex-collegue saya untuk bertanyakan gaji dah masuk ke belum.
kadang-kadang bagus berkomunikasi through sms ni.sebab kita boleh jimatkan kos.tapi bila reply yang diterima itu lambat dan tidak menepati citarasa, geram jugak.lebih-lebih lagi bila kita call orang tu dia tak angkat phone.

maka hari ini saya harus mengenal pasti bahawa gajian dah masuk ke belum.semalam ada jugak check balance.tapi macam sikit.mungkin itu duit claim kot.nanti kejap lagi kena call tanya bos.

aduhaiiii.kenapalah semua orang yang buat research ni dia tak sponsor?rasa susah hati je sepanjang masa (lebih-lebih lagi bila sambung belajar pakai duit sendiri ni).takutttttt je duit tak cukup satu hari nanti.semalam ada jugak tergerak bila kawan offer buat part time nutritionist.tapi bangi dan mines tu macam costly lah kalau nak berulang.karang daripada baik-baik nak kumpul duit,terus jadi burden pulak.

ok lah.gotta go.uruskan withdrawal from 2nd epf account.tata.

wassalam.

akhirnya sempurna

2010-12-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

usaha tangga kejayaan tau.betul.

tengok ni:

setelah berhari-hari bertungkus lumus tersadai kat level 12, akhirnya berjaya jugak lepas ke level 12-8.
tapi sempat game over sekali dua lah.
dan hasilnya:

weh.rasa macam dah habis master je.haha.
gilos.kalau buat research komited camni,empat belas jurnal pun boleh publish lah dalam setahun.

itu kisah semalam.
ini kisah hari ini.
kisah konvoi ke wedding asiah, wakil pertama shorty villa (rujuk entri berjuta-juta tahun cahaya yang lepas) yang melangkah ke fasa seterusnya, marriage.

oh.gadis gedik berdua ini bukanlah pengantin.pengapit juga bukan.langsung takde rupa pengapit.pengepit pun juga bukan.

this is the 1st time, since graduate, us girls gather and reunite. dah lama gila tak jumpa.
jadi, di kesempatan wedding asiah, kami semua berkonvoi empat kereta ke lanchang.

rasa sangat lega bila sepanjang siang kita berkumpul dan reminisce kisah-kisah lama, tanpa sedikit pun membangkitkan perasaan tak puas hati.
kalau ada benda tak sedap yang nak dicakapkan pun, mesti diakhiri dengan ketawa-ketawa.
benda buruk pun ditransform jadi kelakar, benda yang kelakar apatah lagi.
it's good to see you girls. one year had passed, things don't change much.

badan yang masih begitu, muka yang masih begitu, kepala otak yang masih begitu, obviously.

well, back to work.it's not like everyday you get the chance to talk nonsense all day.
yang mana bekerja,balik ke kerja.yang mana belajar,balik belajar.

now i'm already freshen up, let's hunt for jurnals!

a better ikan pari masak asam pedas

2010-12-23T15:25:00.000+08:00

dear alan,if you are reading this,asam pedas ikan pari kat zaaba lagi sedap kot daripada kedai yang kau bawak aku pergi dinner semalam!
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tambahan satu hari kepada lambakan batu-bata dalam kepala saya. lepas dengar briefing pasal library, online journals, courses yada yada, rasa semakin stress.
oh.dan yuran pengajian juga akan dikecualikan jika dapat hantar tesis dalam minggu pertama kuliah.dan diskaun separuh kalau hantar within 2 minggu kuliah.

menjadi seorang yang bercita-cita tinggi memang sangat bagus. tapi hantar tesis dalam masa 2 minggu kuliah? i'll try to work on that. gilos.

(tesis wajib disiapkan dalam bahasa melayu.maka,syahirah,kurangkanlah penggunaan italic untuk perkataan yang anda tak tahu translationnya dalam bahasa melayu.dan sudah-sudahlah rosakkan bahasa dengan merapu tak tentu arah ye syahirah!)
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malam tadi (dan membawa ke pagi tadi), saya telah membaca sebuah buku yang sangat menarik. saya tak pastilah jika penulis buku itu dibayar oleh mana-mana syarikat yang menyuruhnya menulis buku itu.sebab takde dalam pengkatalogan dalam library of congress.
but what the hell,i don't care.it's not like i'm going to use it as reference purposes.

ok.apa yang telah saya baca dan dapati menarik adalah:

keajaiban kehidupan kita yang bermula daripada satu sel (selepas persenyawaan lah kan) yang telah membahagi sampai berjuta-juta lemon dan menghasilkan sel-sel yang pelbagai fungsi.

oh.sebelum itu,before anyone thinks that saya menidakkan aspek 'kuasa Tuhan yang menyebabkan semuanya terjadi', ini adalah penjelasan dari segi saintifik. Memanglah, sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa yang mencipta semua kejadian di langit dan di bumi.

okay.back to work.badan kita mempunyai mekanisma tersendiri untuk menangani masalah-masalah kesihatan.kalau kita banyak jalan,then kaki kita sakit,bermakna itu adalah cara badan kita beritahu kita untuk berhenti sekejap sebab badan dah tak tahan.sama juga kalau kita banyak makan makanan bergoreng dan kemudian kita sakit tekak,menandakan badan kita beritahu yang dia dah tak boleh tolerate lagi dengan makanan bergoreng itu.

buku itu juga menyatakan, bakteria jahat bukanlah bermakna bakteria itu jahat sekali.contohnya,lactobacillus paracasei kedudukan biasanya adalah dalam gut kan,untuk membantu pencernaan.tapi,apabila beliau tiba-tiba muncul di,katakanlah dekat dalam paru-paru (katakanlah kan), dan kemudian menyebabkan jangkitan paru-paru, adakah beliau dikategorikan sebagai orang jahat?

tidak.cuma beliau berada at the wrong place at the wrong time.

dan macamana boleh terjadinya kejadian wrong place at the wrong time tu?

okay.satu contoh lagi.satu fakta menunjukkan yang kalsium boleh inhibit iron absorption.adakah disebabkan itu kalsium itu jahat?

bukan.cuma beliau berada di tempat yang salah pada masa yang salah.jadi,bila pulak masa yang betulnya?

maka,demi meningkatkan penyerapan iron,makanlah kalsium pada masa yang berasingan dengan iron.jadi,dua-dua kita anggap baik,dan dua-dua beneficial untuk diri kita sendiri.
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okay.tadi saya ada dengar briefing pasal intellectual property.

please bare in mind: menyambung pengajian dengan pembiayaan sendiri DOESN'T MAKE ME ORANG KAYA okay? As a PhD holder, i assume you know how can people make money, and you should know that fact already.

Ya. saya tidak menerima sebarang penajaan untuk menyambung belajar. saya pakai duit saya sendiri. bermaksud saya juga bekerja separuh gila macam anda (or maybe less or maybe more) untuk dapatkan duit itu. nak bukti? mahu saya tunjukkan penyusutan mendadak yang sedang berlaku dalam akaun bank saya?

sekian, wassalam.

ikan pari keras masak asam pedas dan sayur tettt masak lemak

2010-12-22T14:22:00.000+08:00

those are what i had for lunch.

i have this...thing about pari masak asam pedas. pantang tengok. nak-nak lagi kalau ada sayur manis masak lemak. (kalau takde wujud istilah sayur manis,please blame my nenek.she taught me that the sayur's name is sayur manis.) (hai atok!i love u!!)

dan sempena hari kedua menginap di hostel semula,sebagai pelajar semula,saya mencatat sejarah dalam kamus hidup saya bahawa 22/12/2010 merupakan hari pertama saya tapau lunch di kafe kolej.
i only have 7 bucks in my purse. sebab semalam lupa nak withdraw.

dan merujuk kepada perenggan pertama, setelah terlihat lauk pari tersebut,saya terus menapau beliau dan menapau sayur manis masak lemak. ada balance lagi tiga ringgit lima posen. balance tu saya beli sudu dan garfu dan roti ceklat. kenapa beli sudu dengan garfu?oh bukanlah sebab saya nak makan nasi pakai sudu dan garfu dalam bilik.oh sungguh...sudugarfuism.eh tapi,kalau makan kat luar,memang saya seorang sudugarfuism.sebab malas nak basuh tangan.sebab tu agaknya kurang focus masa belajar agaknya.kurang enzyme jari.haha

okkkaaaayyyy.sekarang balance tinggal lima posen.dia duduk dalam coin slot dalam kereta.
kembali ke bilik.memulakan tindakan memakan dengan doa makan,dan ngap.tudiaaa.

i know it's disgusting, but masa mula tengok setongkol ikan pari itu, dalam otak terus cakap "ikan pari ke ular ni?"
seriusli,kulitnya menggerutu.tapi sebab lapar,makan je.
teksturnya juga mengecewakan.ikan tersebut amat keras kerana memerlukan bantuan gigi untuk menyiat isinya.kulitnya takyah cakap lah.
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hari ini merupakan hari yang kesekian kalinya saya bertemu puan supervisor.

now i have a clearer picture on how things are going.
the more i know,the more i find this research interesting.
and what we may discover,may change the way things are running in the armed forces.nutrition wise lah.wah bunyinya sangat ambitious.

let me give you a hint.
if there's an option,that,you can have something which contains less of everything and come in small size,but provides you with the satiety and nutrition that you require,and keep you fit,will you go for it?

okay.i think,the more i write,the more i sound like an MLM promoter.haha.

ok lah.time to go to work.catch up with u later.
wassalam.

otak dah beku ni

2010-12-18T20:58:00.000+08:00

menjadi student semula memang ada kasi tunjuk banyak perbezaan.
dulu-dulu rajin gila nak update blog masa tengah siapkan final year project.
sehari kalau boleh dalam empat belas setengah kali nak update blog.

dan sekarang.baru je fasa buat proposal.
daftar pun lagi dua hari.
tup tup dah datang balik perangai dia.update dua kali dalam sehari.

macam biasalah.dalam berbilion-bilion kali mulut ni kata dah bosan dengan facebook,itu je lah yang asyik je dibukanya selagi laptop tu dah turn on.

tengahari tadi saya jumpa perkara yang comel.
empat lima enam tujuh hari yang lepas sepupu kecil saya add di fesbuk.baru form 1 kot.ok lah.sepupu kan?approve je lah.
kemudian petang tadi,macam biasalah,most recent routine-baca semua status updates dekat home page sambil mengutuk dalam hati tang mana-mana yang ada sedikit poyo di mata saya tu.

kemudian,nampak beliau upload gambar masa kecil-kecil kiut miut dulu.lepas tu mak beliau comment 'comelnyeee anak ibu niiii'.haha comel kot bila mak dia comment dia comel kat wall dia.

tadi petang juga tengok satu competition kat tv.diorang nak cari comedian lah.reality tv.tapi bukan kat malaysia lah.
kalau nak compare dengan lawak competition kita,can i say we are left behind?
bukan tak ada yang best,cuma kita banyak bergantung kepada lawak slapstik,plastik,lucah,tersasul yada yada.
come on la.i know we are waaay better than that.

eh.rasa macam pernah cakap pasal benda ni dulu.

but one thing yang saya suka.dia orang juga melawakkan subjek-subjek sensitif seperti politik,perkauman dan..keagamaan.
ok.part keagamaan tu memang saya tak sokong jika ada orang try to make fun of it.tapi kat sini,berapa orang sangat lah berani nak make funny things out of political and racial issues.
paling-paling pun,kalau start dengan benda kelakar,it'll end up with quarrels dan mencarut bagai.

tapi,kan ada masa tu yang diorang organize kings & queen of asia tu kan?ada sesiapa yang pergi tengok tak?
berbaloi-baloi tak?

haihhh.dah lah.sambung repair proposal.tata!

starts anew

2010-12-18T02:09:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

i have moved on to the next phase. menjadi student semula.
dan tengahari tadi saya dah berjumpa puan supervisor.
dah dapat proposal.dah dapat tajuk.and the best part is,dah dapat grant juga!

and my research topic will be very interesting.
i'm not sure whether i can share it here or not.
i'm afraid there'll be consequences like secrecy policy ke hape ke.
because,according to my superV,this research topic is still very new in this country.

but,i'll be sharing a few things from time to time with u.
but,an interesting fact about this research is...i'll be dealing with people in the army.haha
sebelum ni,only with budu dan belacan.now i'm moving on to the next level.homo sapien!

currently i'm staying with a friend in putrajaya.
and next week i'll be permanently (for 2 years) based in bangi.

will catch up with u later.
it's not that convenient to blog now.

sekian, wassalam.

whatever

2010-12-15T23:52:00.001+08:00

unT

2010-12-12T19:07:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan selamat sejahtera.

It's sunday, dan saya tak rasa betul seperti ia adalah weekend.
oh.sebab since friday evening saya dah start berbakaran.from cupcakes to cookies.
ini pun baru siap.dan sangat penat.

oh.luckily esok hari last kerja!
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differences.
i've been doing one small study currently.
takdelah study sangat pun sebenarnya.

saya tidaklah membaca surat khabar setiap hari.
tapi sekali saya baca surat khabar, i'll take all the time in the world to finish it.
i will read between the lines, dan itu akan mengambil masa paling kurang pun sejam.
selepas skip some parts yang saya tak berapa gemar,mainly sports.haha.

one small part yang saya takkan miss baca, di semua akhbar adalah, ruang surat atau sms.
tak kesahlah nst ke,bh ke,hm ke,star ke..semua saya akan baca.

dan saya dapat kesan satu perbezaan ketara.isu.

saya bukan bias terhadap akhbar tabloid, tapi,untuk hm, antara isu utama yang biasanya dikeutarakan adalah, siaran astro yang berulang-ulang tapi kami dah bayar mahal, mat rempit sana mat rempit sini, kisah gadis lombok, orang marah orang buang anak, orang marah orang buat maksiat yada yada.
ok.dan ada sikit kelainan lah.wish birthday dan juga....column jejak kasih.saya cukup tak suka membacanya benda-benda macam tu.

tapi,tu lah.tak suka tak suka pun,pantang nampak column tu,sure baca punya.

ada lah jugak isu yang saya suka orang ketengahkan,tapi biasanya takde dalam hm la.
which is why sometimes made me think, adakah benda-benda macam tu je yang difikirkan oleh
rakyat malaysia lening?

saya rasa lega bila bica column surat/sms pembaca yang ada multiple issues.tak kisah lah politik ke, keagamaan ke, environment ke, language ke, social life ke, entertainment ke, education ke, health ke, pendek kata (haha pendek ke?), campur-campurlah.
which for me,shows that malaysians think.and malaysians dont think of just one thing most of the time.and not all malaysians suka mengeluh setiap kali astro asyik siarkan cerita yang sama.
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farewell.
i'll be leaving johor bahru on wednesday. tapi isnin saya masih lagi 'bekerja'.
honestly saya sudah tidak ada keinginan mahu bekerja.
maklumlah, isnin tu last day.siapa lah ada hati mahu berjumpa client di hari terakhir kerja?

makcik saya is organizing a farewell party today.konon-konon farewell untuk saya yang mahu berhijrah kembali ke alam persekolahan.
maka.since friday kami dah membakaran.
harini kami baru sahaja siapkan hawaiian nut cookies.

gila rasa macam nak pergi oversea pun ada.
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panas
sejak baru-baru ini,saya dah berjaya kenalpasti satu sikap saya yang sangat signifikan.
panas baran.hot tempered.

saya cepat naik marah.dan bila saya marah,saya marah betul.

ok.got to go now.something came up.tata

2010-12-07T16:55:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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I watched a movie on tv a couple of days ago. tajuknya love happens. it's about a motivational speaker having seminars on grief management.

saya tertarik dengan satu method yang dia gunakan.

it's like this:

the speaker asked all the audience to follow him out of the hall.

kemudian dia pergi ke jalanraya yang sibuk.

he stopped all the cars. and asked all the audience to follow him standing in the middle of the road.

he asked his audience, what do they see.

answers are, cars honking, people yelling, middle fingers, noises here and there.

then, he asked them to ikut him to the rooftop of the building.

there,he asked again.what do they see.

answers are, peacefulness, calmness, windy air, birds chip.

so the conclusion is, in our hearts and minds, there are jalanraya yang sibuk, dan rooftop yang tenang.
it is which perspective do we use to look at it.
samada kita nak tengok from the perspective jalan yang busy, atau perspective rooftop yang tenang.

wah.saya rasa sungguh, moved tau, by the scene.
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okay.
agenda seterusnya.
saya sedang mengemas buku-bukuan saya.
mana yang harus dibawa semasa nak sambung belajar nanti.mana yang harus ditinggalkan di rumah.

so here i am,sharing a few books from my collection,which i found very interesting.
(saya snap picture sendiri sebab saya tau ada buku yang kalau saya google pun takde.jadi,faham-faham je lah.camera handphone je pun)

1) false impression oleh encik archer.

(sorryla. dah cuba rotate.tapi tak boleh)
saya bukanlah peminat novel dia. ini adalah novel beliau yang pertama saya beli.
dan saya membacanya berkali-kali. sebab saya rasa sangat best.
pasal lukisan.

2) novel encik tuah. (saya tak pernah tahu h.m. tu stands for apa. mohon maaf)

original merupakan novel karangan beliau yang saya beli.

setelah mendapati ceritanya menarik, saya teruskan dengan enrique mengundang jauh.

original pasal seorang lelaki yang dah lupa identitinya sendiri. tapi tak berapa nak ingat. banyak sangat monolog dalaman rasanya dalam buku ni.

enrique mengundang jauh. honestly, i don't remember the storyline.

tapi ceritanya tak bosan. dan tak remeh temeh.

tapi tak tau lah.ceritanya tak melekat kat otak. dan saya baca sekali je. lepas tu terus simpan. hee

3) novel-novel encik sheldon

without doubt, my favorite author.

saya dah baca semua novel beliau. dan boleh recall balik hampir semua novel-novel yang saya dah baca.

dan saya baca novel-novelnya berkali-kali.

tapi sadly beliau dah meninggal dunia.

tun pun suka dengan beliau tau.

4) tun dan encik abdullah

saya beli buku selected letters tu a few years back. saya suka bahasa yang tun gunakan.

setiap isu yang tun ketengahkan dalam setiap surat nampak sangat...lembut.

walaupun beliau sangat direct, tapi ayat beliau sangat tersusun.

saya tahu mengenai abdullah ahmad melalui buku selested letters tu. sebab beliau tulis introductions.

dan beliau saya refer kalau saya nak tahu summary tentang beberapa isu.

saya tak berapa kenal beliau. tak tahu latar belakang beliau.

but i like what i read.

5) novel-novel encik brown

setakat ini saya dah baca dari da vinci code sampailah the lost symbol.
semasa saya tonton dvc dan angels n demons, saya agak hampa sebab filemnya sangat sekejap, dibandingkan dengan cara prof langdon tu selesaikan semua puzzle.
tapi lost symbol macam sedikit lost. maksud saya, tak semenarik yang lepas-lepas.
mungkin sebab jalan ceritanya macam sama dengan novel-novel sebelumnya.
tapi saya tetap suka tulisannya.
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ok lah.harus mengemas bilik.sangat horror.

sekian, wassalam.

distractions!

2010-11-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

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Harini the whole day kami bermeeting+berstudy di batu pahat.

sangat berilmiah yet sangat penat.

and tonight i have to submit a few things that are supposed to be submitted tomorrow morning.

but tomorrow i have to go to mersing early in the morning.

And below are the distractions i have faced so far:

1. Tumblebugs

Sebuah(?) game yang sangat addictive.

Dahulu masa saya study, saya suka main zuma.

Sekarang ini adalah tumblebugs. Macam zuma, but slightly different.

Ada upgraded features.

I can stare at the laptop screen for 5 straight hours just to play this game. (Like now).

And I haven't taken my dinner.nice.

2. Pesbuk

Aaaahhh. This one doesn't need any introduction.

Tapi, I'm not so addicted to it lah.

agak membosankan kadang-kadang.

(People,go watch the social network lahhhh)

3. Hawaii lima kosong 2010

Although tak se-detail CSI, tapi mcgarrett tetap di hati.

4. Truly yours, carihari.

Ni lagi satu. I was supposed to have lunch like hours ago.

Tapi still, here I am.

Haha.

OK lah. McGarrett is waiting.

tata~

now what?

2010-11-28T20:41:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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I wonder why is it so bloody hard to log into my twitter account. Is it only just me, or everyone else?
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It's another no-do weekend. Maksud kata, weekend yang tiada aktiviti selain in-house activities:
eg: membasuh, menjemur, mengangkat, melipat, menyapu, mengemas, menonton, meng-online, bermain game, tidur, memblog, mem-facebook, membaca majalah dan akhbar yada yada.

And it is FREAKIN AWESOME!!!!

Bayangkang, sepanjang minggu anda mahu buat itu semua, tapi setiap kali anda balik kerja,
all you can do is, just stare at the dusty floor, put down all you files and bags, take a shower, eat and sleep.
haha.

I am totally recharged! But sadly it's sunday night already :(

Dan my crave towards roti bakar is...haih.susah nak cakap.
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I'll be starting my new routine back as a student this december 20th.

I have plans made for my career development.
I (maybe) have plans made for my assets and financial development.
And I have to restructure back my plans for life.

But getting married at the age of 27 is still relevant.
Saya akan memperjuangkannya.Yeah!
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I spent my afternoon by reading my magazined. Old ones, new ones.
I watched 'The Social Network' and I am amazed by the story.
It's hard to figure out which part or which scene yang saya betul-betul suka.
Or maybe I just like the entire movie. Period.

Dan saya menyelongkar kotak magazine saya.
Saya jumpa Time edisi October 4th, when I first know about the movie.
I am really amazed by how a movie about the development of a website can be soooooo interesting.
My eyes are pinned at the screen, not wanting to miss every single second of it.

Wah. Bunyi pun ada persis promo cerita 2 alam. HAHA.

in the end of the interview (between Time mag dengan fincher & sorkin; the director dan screenwriter):
Time: So is the sequel the Twitter movie? Am I the 18th person to make that joke?
Sorkin: It's not a joke anymore. I just read yesterday, they're making a movie about the guys who invented Google.

walaweiii. They make lots of money from things we do everyday.
Takde ke orang kita nak buat cerita pasal....um...anyam ketupat ke? (can't think of anything more traditional yet regularly done)

OK. Then, after saya baca apa yang sorkin tu cakap, saya teringat pasal an article i read today. Can't remember from which newspaper. Entah b harian ke metro. About a female engineer working with Google. The youngest.

You see, after I watched the social network, i quickly realized.
These guys, I mean, these people, they have created massive success at such a young age.

Dan saya?
I'm 24 and I'm....(almost) nothing?

Dan kemudian saya teringat, a friend said to me (lebih kurang camni lah),
"Syah, aku tau, kau ni orang yang hebat. Kau takkan habis kat sini je," (referring to my career development).

Terus je semangat jadi berkobar-kobar.
The only thing is, I just have to figure out, what is it that I want to succeed in?
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I guess this entry is all about Time mag. Haha.

November 22nd edition is about the 50 best inventions of 2010.
Dan satu perkara yang menarik - legal marijuana.

Saya sangat tertarik bagaimana mereka boleh me-legal-kan penjualan marijuana sebagai ubat.
Saya tak tahu lah dekat Malaysia ni dah ada ke belum. Mungkin dah ada, cuma saya je yang tak tahu.

The first thing that came up to my mind after reading the (lebih kurang) 6-page article is,
"This is really big business".

Seriously, terutama lepas saya baca yang Jenelise Robinson tu ada jual lemon bars dan macaroons.
Dan ala bukak cafe, jual makanan, yang mengandungi marijuana, secara legal!

This is really interesting. Really really interesting.
But needs a lot of studies, a lot of researches and counter researches and references.

And by the wayyyyyyyy, back to the point.
Inventions.

Ada banyak inventions. Semuanya interesting. SERIOUS. Jet pack lah. spray on fabric lah.lab grown lungs. faster growing salmon. etc etc. Benda-benda yang kita sangka hanya wujud dalam cerita James Bond sahaja. Tapi dah dimaterialised kan. And it'll be out, soon!

Satu invention: The straddling bus.
Sebuah bas dengan kelebaran dua lane jalan, tempat duduk di tingkat atas dan ruang di bawah tu untuk kereta lain lalu.

hah. ni dia. trial project akan dijalankan di beijing bermula hujung 2011.

saya teringat satu dialog dalam cerita 2012: "Only the chinese can do it,"
Nice.
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OK lah. Harus bergerak. Nenek saya dah bising suruh pergi bank cepat sementara hari masih siang katanya.
(It's 8.40 pm lah tok!)

Sekian, wassalam.

S.O.S

2010-11-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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This is not the first time.

Saya ada satu masalah.
Masalah pertuturan.
Ini bukan kali pertama.

Masalah saya adalah, saya selalu, tanpa sengaja dan tanpa kerelaan, mispronounced perkataan.

Ini adalah disebabkan oleh saya mahu menyampaikan sesuatu kepada seseorang, tapi dalam otak saya, ada 2 ayat berlainan dibentuk untuk menyampaikan ayat itu.
Dan kemudian bila keluar dari mulut, kedua-dua ayat itu akan bertindan.

Contohnya, pagi tadi di stesyen minyak. Saya nak beli suratkhabar.

Adegan 1
Saya: Dik, paper straits times ke, star ke, ada tak?
Cashier: Cuba tengok kat luar tu.

OK. Ketika ini, secara automatiknya otak saya berkata, 'dah tengok dah kat luar tadi,' 'takde,' 'yang ada cuma paper metro dengan berita harian je' serentak.

jadi ini yang terkeluar:

Saya: Dakde. Dah. Paper. Err yang ada metro dengan berita harian je.

Adegan 2

Saya mahu bercerita dengan kawan saya tentang seorang aktor hollywood yang hot.

Dalam otak saya, 'alex tu hot gila' dan 'alex tu charming gila'

Maka,
Saya: alex tu hotming gila.

Ini bukan main-main. And this is not funny.
This has happened a lot of times.

Tadi saya google untuk sebarang speech impairment.

Adalah keluar beberapa hit: Aphasia lah, Dysphonia lah, Tinnitus lah, Dementia lah, Stuttering lah...dan yang paling extreme sekali, Alzheimer Disease.

Saya dah baca satu persatu. OK nak share kat sini tak sempat. Kejap lagi nak keluar.
Tiada satu pun yang kena betul-betul pada bull's eye.

OK. Memang ada yang kena sikit-sikit. Basically dia kata gangguan pada otak yada yada.

Maka, to all readers, if you come across any scientific findings berkaitan masalah saya ni, boleh tak share.

I don't want this to become severe.
Maklumlah, cita-cita saya mahu menjadi seorang pensyarah.
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Sekian, wassalam.

movies.

2010-11-21T17:11:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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Konon-konon nak update blog tadi. Sekali dah sangkut dekat satu fanpage kat facebook.
Kesian pulak aku dengan si dr rozmey ni.
Punya lah banyak orang tak suka kat dia. Bukan tak suka kat dia lah. Tapi tak suka dengan kebongkakannya atau kawan aku kata 'optimism'. Yeah optimism lah sangat.
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This is what happened this afternoon.
I planned on going to a friend's wedding out of Johor Bahru area.

Dah siap-siap pakai baju kebaya tudung segala bagai, and I went to pick up my companion.

While waiting for her to get into my car, I took the invitation card and looked at the map.
Mental preparation lah konon.
I swear I forgot today's date.

Next thing we know, we are one week beyond the schedule.
Dengan kawan saya yang dah bereyeliner bagai.
The wedding is not until next week.

Inilah pertama kali berlaku dalam hidup saya. Tidak pernah berlaku dalam hidup yang saya salah tarikh.
Jadi saya nak simpulkan bahawa:

1) Bowel activity yang tidak memuaskan hati akan mengakibatkan gangguan dalam aktiviti otak kiri (eh ingat tarikh tu falls under logical ke?).

(this picture is NOT from my personal collection. I googled it.)

2) Undangan ke majlis perkahwinan rakan sebaya yang datang berduyun-duyun setiap minggu menyebabkan otak sukar untuk mengingati tarikh yang betul (once again, brain malfunction lah kononnya)

3) Kelegaan tidak terbendung setelah mengantar notis resignation menyebabkan kegembiraan tak terkawal lantas mahu menyegerakan segala aktiviti sosial yang ada.

Oh ya. Saya dah tender resign. Seriously. Jumaat lalu.

Saya sudah dapat offer sambung belajar. Dan dah nekad. I quitted my job. Sekarang tengah menghabiskan notis sebulan.

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Ada seorang kawan saya yang kini sedang mengaji di Perancis, mengupdate status di facebook mengatakan harry potter 7 belum keluar lagi kat sana.

Dia kata keluar serentak dengan translated version.

Actually I don't really get it, mungkin translated version tu yang diorang cakap french kot.

I don't know. I've never been to France.

Anywayyyyy,back to the point.

Saya dah tengok hp7. And it was nice.

Nice is a compliment since I'm not a HP fan. I don't read the books. I like LOTR more.

Dan once scene masa dobby cakap2 dengan harry tu ishhhhhh..betul2 macam smeagol cakap dengan frodo lah!

Ok again, that is not the point.

My point is, there's this movie. Not so new. Let me in.

Ada chloe moretz dalam tu. cik hitgirl dalam kickass.

(Saya berasa tak faham kenapa setiap kali saya sebut kickass sebagai satu perkataan [bunyi camni keecast.camtulah kononnya.that's the closest] instead off sebut [kick][ass] sebagai dua perkataan, setiap kali itulah saya kena ulang sebanyak 3x dan orang yang saya berbual dengan itu akan betulkannya.adakah salah?)

seeeeee.meleret lagi.

okay. let me in adalah cerita vampire yang tak macam twilight.

saya suka twilight. sebab saya team jacob. edward macam...sangat...fragile?

againnnnn.haihhh.

chloe moretz jadi vampire dalam let me in. saya dah wiki dan dah tengok kat rotten tomatoes (89% dekat tomatometer).

saya nak tengok cerita tu, tapi i'm a chicken when it comes to horror movie.

maksud kata, saya tak berani nak tengok horror movie sorang-sorang.

i asked a couple of friends to teman me watch let me in, tapi tiada yang mahu menonton sebab diorang kata 'siapa yang berlakon?' atau 'siapa?chloe?siapa tu?'

yep. the same answer i get when i ajak-ed them to teman me watch enthiran.haha.

(yes.enthiran is not an horror movie. cuma i don't want to be the odd one among all those ppl inside the cinema.kamon laaaa...rajinikanth kottttttt)

yes.i still will not give up on wanting to watch let me in.

please don't say that it's out of the list already.

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ok lah.sekian, wassalam.

Hari hujan,sejuk perut

2010-11-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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Saya: I really wanted to tell you earlier, but I was scared.
Catherine: I know. I understand. Sooner or later you'll tell me. This is the decision you have to make not just because you don't want people to be sad or what, but because this is what you want to do in life.
Imagine we're wailing on a boat. You are tumpang-ing the boat because you are going to your destination, only that your destination is not the same as mine.
As a friend, I feel really happy for you because you decided to further your study. Not many people have the chance to do so.
And as a manager, of course I feel sad. I have a team, but I have nobody inside my team. You and Shirley are leaving the company. And I have to familiarize with my new team member. I watched you improved a lot since the first day you started working here.
Saya: Honestly, I've started to like my job more now. It's just that it happened that I have to register in December. I know you're having hard times because we're short of staff, and 2011 is coming.
Catherine: It's okay. I can handle that, although it's hard. Only that, as a friend, you should have told me earlier so that I can be prepared and not having this kind of shock right now.

Percayalah, perbualan telefon itu sangat memberi kesan kepada saya sepanjang perjalanan pulang dari kedai menjual barang-barang kek tadi.
Seorang bos muda yang pada mulanya saya tidak gemari tetapi merupakan seorang yang amat inspiring.
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Petang tadi saya memandu di kawasan sekitar pejabat saya, sebuah kawasan perindustrian.
Jalan menuju roundabout. Kereta saya berada di belakang sebuah innova.

Dari lane kanan, innova itu memberi signal ke kiri, berpindah lorong.
Menghampiri roundabout, innova itu memberi signal kanan, tanda bukan mahu keluar di lorong jam 9 round about tersebut.
Dia keluar di lorong jam 12. Begitu juga saya.

Keluar sahaja ke lorong itu, dia memberi signal kanan, tanda mahu berpindah lorong.
Mungkin di hadapan itu beliau mahu membelok kanan.
Kereta saya melepasi kereta beliau.

Seorang lelaki bercermin mata hitam dan memakai handsfree kit.

Saya berasa gembira kerana keadaan itu sangat sangat sangat jarang ditemui di kawasan itu. Not even by me.

Selalunya, orang tak beri signal. Memandu laju. Tidak menggunakan handsfree.

Sejuk mata menengoknya.haha.
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Sekian, wassalam.

kisah hari-hari

2010-11-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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Dia membuang plastik minuman itu ke dalam tong sampah di sebelahnya.
Kemudian dia hidupkan enjin motosikal.
Kaca mata hitam itu masih melekat di tempatnya.
Sekurang-kurangnya ada bahagian pada kepalanya yang terlindung daripada terik matahari.

Dia sampai ke tempatyang dituju.
Motosikal diletakkan di sebelah deretan motosikal yang lain.
Dia tarik tuala lusuh di tengkuknya.
Boleh juga dibuat lap keringat di kepala licin itu.

Dia mengatur langkah ke timbunan kotak-kotak padat itu.
Dia teliti senarai yang panjang lebar.
Sesekali dia berdecit. Sesekali berdehem. Sesekali mengeluh.
Lantas dia angkat kotak itu. Dan satu kotak lagi. Dan satu kotak lagi.

Empat belas kotak sudah dia alihkan. Dikumpulkan setempat.
Dia berhenti duduk seketika. Peluh menitik jangan dikata.
Eh, tiga hari lagi harijadi si anak bongsu.
Dia langsung bangkit, terus menuju ke senarai itu.

Sambil dia angkat kotak itu, sekilas dia terpandang lelaki yang dalam pejabat itu.
Merenung skrin komputer. Menaip. Sesekali ketawa. Kerapkali berkerut wajahnya.
Dia melihat kembali kotak-kotak itu. Dia berfikir sejenak.
Sepuluh tahun yang lalu, adakah lelaki itu juga sama-sama ponteng sekolah macam dia? Melepak? Hisap rokok?

Dia sambung bekerja.
Tiga hari lagi harijadi si anak bongsu.
Telefon bimbit? Play station? Basikal?
Buku?
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Sekian, wassalam.

Two days away

2010-11-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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One person's sacrifice is not visible to the others.

I have one big project this saturday. A 15 times smaller jom-heboh-kinda thingy organized by the company i'm working with.
It involves a lot of people. And i targeted a lot of people will come too.

Suddenly, this morning, i received a call from my boss, saying that the health screening session is CANCELLED.

I feel like my world came tumbling down, falling apart, unravelling, breaking into pieces, into disorder, destructuralizing and disjoint altogether. Any ideas on more suitable words?

Kisahnya begini, there's this code of ethics saying that we cannot sponsor this group of people for any activity or program or whatsoever, sebab takutkan kita tak support breastfeeding.

But then, one of the officers jumpa our flyers at a clinic.

Then, due to our 'identity' as being known for our products, they brought this thing up to the meeting, and voila, the slot is being cancelled, today, like, less than 2 days away?

Saya cuba berfikiran positif lah kan, maybe the officer tried to defend us in the meeting. Maybe he sacrificed for me and I didn't see it. OR maybe not.

Rasa macam nak berhenti kerjaaaaaaaaaa.hahahahah.
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Well, as you can see, I tampal-ed a twitter gadget on my wall.
I don't know how many is reading this, and I don't know who. But I am pretty sure I have some readers based from the report by sitemeter.

I just created my second twitter account.

Oh oh bukanlah sebab my 1st twitter account tu dah overloaded with stalkers ke apa.(HAHA.you wish, syahirah!)
Tapi I created the account like, berkurun ago, and I forgot the login ID and the password.

Maka, saya telah create a second account, and hope that I can remember this one.
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BAHANA DRIVE THRU ATM MACHINE

This afternoon, my girlfriend and i went for lunch at pizza hut setia tropika.
We sat next to the tingkap.
And then we saw it - a drive thru ATM machine.

Ya, kami kejakunan (def: kepelikan sebab tak pernah nampak dengan mata kepala sendiri).
Maka, kami mengambil masa yang lama untuk menghabiskan lunch sebab:
1) We ordered the new apa-ntah on the menu yang cheese here cheese there semua cheese tu
2) We stared at every car yang masuk dalam ATM drive thru machine tu.

Kita mesti mencuba benda itu!, kata saya kepada kawan saya (Ayat diubahsuai supaya kedengaran sungguh teruja).
Ya, mari kita! Bersama menuju kebahagiaan!, balas kawan saya (Juga diubahsuai supaya kedengaran poyo [def: over dan menyakitkan hati, mata dan telinga])

Then, after we started the engine, we pusing around the building, just to enter the drive thru ATM.

My niat was to check my account balance lah. My friend's niat was to withdraw SOME money for really important use.

Then we tekan-tekan the button yada yada.

I checked my balance.
She withdrew her money.

And then it happened.
The most unexpected thing.

I inserted my ATM card again, and I WITHDREW SOME money, two times more than what my friend withdrew. She just stared and me and laughed. Langsung tiada marah-marah ke apa.haha.

oh perempuan! why oh whyyyyyyyy?????
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Esok saya ke mersing. prepare for project on saturday.

The result for sambung master will be out next week.

Can't wait to quit my job and become student again! Wow. sounds really easy.
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Sekian, wassalam.

Hey ho esok kerja!

2010-11-10T00:52:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Hari ini saya ber'out station' ke mersing.

For the past 7 days menyaksikan saya menjadi pengunjung, pejalan, pengguna, perehat dan pentandas tetap lebuhraya utara selatan.

Semalam sahaja menyaksikan saya bertembung dengan 3 road block di tempat berbeza-kulai, senai dan apa-entah-lagi-satu-tak-ingat.

Sungguh saya merasakan bahawa saya betul-betul seperti seorang musafir yang ber'pilgrimage' ke entah mana-mana tempat entah.

I just cannot imagine doing this while having kids who is at the most vital level of growing up.
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Tadi saya berborak dengan seseorang.

This is just something I would like to share with you guys.

Untuk pengetahuan anda, zat besi (iron) akan inhibit calcium absorption.
Maksud: jika dalam satu masa kita makan zat besi dan kalsium, penyerapan kalsium akan diganggu gugat oleh zat besi itu.
It's a fact.

Kemudian, vitamin C akan enhance calcium absorption.
Maksud: jika dalam satu masa kita makan vitamin C dan kalsium, penyerapan kalsium akan dibantu oleh zat besi itu.

Jadi, bagaimana kita hendak mendapatkan kalsium dan zat besi pada masa yang sama?
For those who's taking either iron or calcium supplements, it is advisable for you to take it separately. Not at the same time. So that both absorption can occur. Kira-kira win-win situation lah!

I need any feedback if you have any fact which oppose to this. Thanks!
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Honestly, I am never a fan of drama ke tv series berbahasa melayu malaysia/ indonesia.
Call me unpatriotic, but i feel we need to breath new air and look for a greener grass, in this matter lah.

Nenek saya merupakan seorang penggemar drama melayu.
Drama melayu saya refer kepada BUKAN drama zaman P. Ramlee tau.
Tapi drama melayu adalah merefer kepada drama yang menunjukkan gaya hidup keluarga CEO company yang kesemuanya orang Melayu yang berjaya dan kaya raya.
Gaya hidup gadis-gadis melayu korporat.
Gaya hidup orang melayu kampung yang bekerja di ladang getah, ladang kelapa sawit, kedai makan ataupun kilang.
Gaya hidup keluarga yang berorang gajikan 'Mak Jah' atau 'Mak Mah' atau 'Mak Nah'.

Mana gaya hidup sebenar orang Malaysia?
- Yang bekerja dalam syarikat yang menggajikan orang multibangsa dan etnik?
- Yang berorang gajikan orang Indonesia atau Vietnam?
- Yang bekerja makan gaji dengan kelulusan setara tetapi menyewa di rumah kongsi?
- Yang tinggal di kampung dan bekerja menjaga kedai top-up?

Be realistic lah. Give us real stories, with real people.
Jangan sajikan muda-mudi sekarang dengan angan-angan.
Berikan mereka sesuatu untuk mereka fikirkan, untuk mereka cipta solution, untuk mereka lihat sendiri mana penanda ukur mereka.
Give us causes and consequences.

For we have been sleeping for too bloody long.
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Sekian, wassalam.

cuti yay!

2010-11-05T18:24:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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Hari ini hari pembasuhan baju saya.
Ya, sebagai seorang yang berkerjaya (kononnya), saya akan menyumbat pakaian-pakaian kerja seharian yang sudah dipakai ke dalam laundry basket, dan akan membasuhnya di hujung minggu.

Tapi, mesin basuh baju saya ROSAK hari ini.

Untuk mengatasi masalah itu, saya mencuci pakaian dengan tangan.

Disebabkan baju-baju, seluar slacks kerja dan tudung-tudung saya banyak, saya membasuh dalam 2 batch berlainan.

Jadi hari ini, saya mahu kongsi teknik pencucian tangan pakaian kerja ala washing machine. Dengan syarat:
1) Pakaian itu tiada kotoran degil. Kalau ada, beruslah dulu kot ye pun.
2) Sila lah jangan libatkan pakaian dalam, dalam ini hal. Perlu ke saya tegaskan, janganlah amalkan teknik pembasuhan sekali seminggu untuk pakaian dalam ye.
3) Teknik ini untuk yang bujang je lah. Kalau dah ada anak-anak tu,janganlah dok kumpul baju banyak-banyak.

Okeh. Let us begin!

1. Sediakan tiga baldi berlainan. Seperti dalam gambar di bawah.

2. Kalau kita tengok washing machine, dia pusing-pusing kan?

Rendam baju dalam besen pertama.

So, dalam besen pertama, kita kocak-kocak, dan tarik satu baju, beruslah sikit-sikit pakai tangan. Apply to all bajus.

3. Kemudian, bilas semua baju itu sebelum direndam dalam besen kedua.

4. Agak-agak sabun semua dah tanggal, transfer all bajus ke dalam besen ketiga. Leave for like, 30 minutes?

Sementara merendam, bolehlah pergi tengok tv. Biasalah, orang bujang memang macam ni.

Oh, besen pertama dan kedua seeloknya digantilah kandungannya. Besen ketiga tu tak payahlah. Membazir sahaja.

Kemudian, toskan, ataupun perah baju, dan jemur. Sekian.

(Ye lah kan. Bukan semua orang pernah duduk asrama. At least I want to talk about something useful here. Hehe)

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Yesterday I took my first jab of cervarix. It's a vaccine against certain types of cancer-causing human papillomavirus (HPV). Another product with a similar function yang ada kat market ialah gardasil. Bolehlah tanya doktor-doktor anda.

This injection is one of the precaution steps we can get as a prevention from getting cervical cancer.

There are a few times I explained to my friends, that I'm taking this jab.

And the most often respond i get is, "Err.Dah...dah....dah kahwin ke?" as a cover up for the real question they want to ask which is "you've had sex before?"

Sedikit sebanyak pasal cervical cancer ihsan encik wiki:

Worldwide, cervical cancer is twelfth most common and the fifth most deadly cancer in women. It affects about 16 per 100,000 women per year and kills about 9 per 100,000 per year. Approximately 80% of cervical cancers occur in developing countries. Worldwide, in 2008, it was estimated that there were 473,000 cases of cervical cancer, and 253,500 deaths per year. (copypasted)

It is true that a sexually active person has a high risk of getting cervical cancer. But as we know, cancer cells may evolve from anything. What I meant is, as we can observe from our environment, sometimes the most unlikeliest person we kow, have been diagnosed for cancer. Am I right?

Dan vaccination for HPV is only effective infection occurs. Sebab tu, disuruh ambil semasa usia muda-muda.

Dan ye, last time I went to a govt clinic, the nurse told me that the govt is supplying free vaccination for budak-budak sekolah. And for us, we have to pay about RM200 per jab. That is almost the cheapest price we have to pay per jab for HPV vaccination. And it is to be taken in 3 separate jabs: after 1 month of 1st jab, and after 3 months of 2nd jab, if I'm not mistaken.

Budak-budak sekolah sekarang sangat.beruntung.

Tangan kanan saya sangat lenguh. Nak masak, nak basuh baju, nak mengemop, even nak drive pun takde mood.

Tangan lenguh, bahu sakit. Haha.

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OK lah. That's all for now.

Sekian, wassalam.

tak puas hati

2010-11-02T19:13:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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I am now in Mersing, work purpose.

Oh ya, how's the new look? I feel that I need to refresh my blog. It's pretty dusty already.
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Saya ditahan oleh seorang pak polisi tadi, ketika dalam perjalanan ke mersing.

Saya tidak pernah disuruh berhenti ketika road block. Tadi sort of, kali pertama.
Pak polisi itu suruh saya berhenti, kemudian dia berjalan ke depan kereta saya.
(Oh.Saya memandu berseorangan tadi.Ye lah.work purpose kan)
Sampai di depan kereta saya,dia tengok kertas di tangannya.Kemudian dia bercakap sendirian.

Saya tidaklah gusar kerana di tempat itu ada 3 lagi pak polisi yang lain. Kira yang ni bukan dummy police lah.eh.what i meant is, polis yang menyamar.maaf jika ayat tidak sesuai.

kemudian pak polisi itu berjalan ke sisi kereta saya yang kotor kerana di-splash oleh lecak semalam.tompok-tompok coklat itu sungguh bangga melekat di pintu dan tingkap kereta itu.nasib baik warna silver.

saya turunkan tingkap.pak polisi minta lesen memandu.saya beri.

pak polisi tengok lesen saya.

"Dari mana dik?"
"Dari JB encik,"

kemudian dia tengok lesen saya, kemudian memulangkan semula kepada saya.lepas tu dia suruh saya jalan.

saya pun jalan dengan termangu-mangu, ingatkan dia tahan saya dengan kadar lebih lama dari kebiasaan kerana saya telah ditangkap memotong di line kuning dan double line tadi.

nasib baik masa saya turunkan tingkap tadi, saya tak terus menerus mengaku,

"Encik, saya minta maaf sebab potong kat double line dengan line kuning tadi. Saya nak kejar kereta depan saya tu sebab saya bengang dia tak potong lori besar depan dia. Saya dah lah dah lambat ni encik!"
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Tadi tengahari saya makan di sebuah gerai di tepi sungai.
Memang tiap kali saya ke sini, saya akan makan di situ.
Sebab saya tak tahu kewujudan tempat lain.

Saya lihat kedai sebelah memasang DVD. Baik hati betul, padahal orang tak datang kedai dia pun.
Kemudian saya teringat, di Mersing tiada panggung wayang. betul?

Dia pasang cerita filem lawak keluaran Malaysia. Yang saya tak suka.
Dan orang yang pasang cerita itu kemudian duduk betul-betul di depan TV. Saya bukanlah mahu membuat assumption yang bukan-bukan, tapi rasa-rasanya, mesti itu bukan kali pertama dia tengok filem itu.

Dan pakcik di sebelah dia juga tergelak-gelak macam filem itu kelakar sangat.
Mungkin saya rasa itu menjengkelkan sebab saya tak rasa filem itu kelakar.
You don't have to shout to make your words sound funny.

Dan mungkin juga sebab orang itu dari saya mula makan, sampai habis makan, asyik sahaja menjeling saya.
Mungkin itu antara penyebab saya rasa situasi itu menjengkelkan.
They may don't often get a lady coming alone as guests kot?

I've wiki-ed about comedic genres. There are tonnes of it.
And I believe that there are a lot of people, in Malaysia, who can make a good and quality joke.

I listen to morning talk shows on radio, and sometimes I laugh at the jokes.

Berbalik kepada genre komedi, one of the most often yang saya dengar ialah black comedy, atau dark comedy.

From wiki:

Black comedy deals with disturbing subjects such as death, drugs, terrorism, rape, and war. Some dark comedy is similar to the horror movie genre. Television examples include Brass Eye.

Saya faham, susah untuk buat orang gelak, tapi kalau dah pekerjaan yang didaftarkan ke atas kita adalah untuk buat orang gelak, kita mestilah buat bersungguh-sungguh kan?
Dan satu lagi, buatlah supaya lawak itu bermakna. Bererti. Bukan gelak kosong.

Adakah terlampau susah untuk menghasilkan lawak sedemikian, or is it the malaysian people masih lagi hidup bergantung dengan lawak slapstik untuk ketawa?

Dulu saya mungkin ketawa dengan lawak-lawak itu, but as i grew older, i no longer laugh at it.Macam tidak bermakna.
Tapi, kenapa ada some people, as they grew older, they just don't see it?
Or is it just about me? Am I being freako here?

(Kebengangan sebab takde peluang menyaksikan Kings and Queen of Comedy Asia haritu)
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Lapar.
Tapi saya tiada kawan di Mersing untuk diajak makan.
sigh~
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Sekian, wassalam.

born and raised here maa

2010-10-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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Saya baru sahaja tiba from melaka.for a meeting.
Funny thing I realised along the highway.

Ada sebiji lancer polis peronda lebuhraya, driving slow on the left lane.i was two cars behind.

ada sebiji vios putih, can be seen from my rear mirror, taking over all the cars behind me.
then suddenly, bila dia sampai kat sebelah lancer tu,dia slow down.then took all the trouble untuk cuba menyelit kat belakang lancer polis tu.

hahahaha.isn't it obvious?haiya.truly malaysian lah.
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got one time i stopped by at a petronas at the highway.
then as i was leaving the petrol station, there was a car on the side of the road,reversing.

the car terlepas the petrol station, and reverse just to get back into the petrol station.

yeah.a malaysian identity.
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i was out watching a movie with a bunch of friends.
then suddenly jumpa another friend.an ex-schoolmate.

then belakang tu ada satu poster besar cerita kartun yang akan being screened soon.

then we quickly beratur depan poster tu, to take picture.

truly malaysian lah!
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i just had lunch.then my friend texted me,ajak minum kejap.
perut is full, but then as i sampai at the meja, i ordered a teh o.

because i'm malaysian maa.
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we used to have breakfast together almost everyday, my chinese colleague and i.
or sometimes, lunch.

mine: a plate of nasi lemak with teh o.
hers: a bowl of noom pachok or whatever, with a teh tarik, cili potong or sambal belacan.

we are malaysian!
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i was driving in a kampung area,with only one lane to and fro.

i was speeding a bit (that's why i escaped the town area and chose the kampung area,hoping the jalan would be 'clear'). i was in a hurry maa.

then ada one guy on a motorcycle, rode in the middle of the road.
i cannot potong him because yellow line (actually got cars on the other side). if potong then koyak lah.

i did not honk him, because i am not used to using the horn.

then when i got the chance, i potong him lah.

it turned out that he was main sms sambil bawa motor. aduyaiiiii.

this is one of the malaysian identities yang paling membencikan.
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so,what other malaysian identities that you've identified so far?
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sekian, wassalam.

succeed!

2010-10-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Just (3 hours) came back from my function in a hotel in JB.

the crowd was freaking awesome!

and my boss also complimented on the successful event.

this is the one and only picture (without any company logo) which i can find in my memory card:

i was really happy like mad.
one more program to go!
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let's talk about relationships.
(that's the most talked about topic between me and friends for the past few weeks, probably months)

saya tak pernah bersetuju bahawa hubungan antara kawan-kawan akan berakhir dengan lebih daripada kawan.
memang pernah ada kawan-kawan lelaki saya yang menyatakan hasrat untuk berkawan lebih daripada kawan dengan saya.

ada satu tu terlepas. i approved it.
and it didn't end up so well, i guess.well,past is past.

kawan-kawan lelaki saya (yang mesra dengan saya) juga terdiri daripada kelompok yang suka bergurau tidak mengira tempat atau masa.
sampaikan sometimes it is hard to tell, when they (not to sound cocky,but ya, more than 1) tell me they want to marry me, whether they are serious or not.
but then, my plain answer would be, "datanglah meminang.kita tengok macam mana"
1) i can't imagine how not to laugh bila duduk bersanding atas pelamin, with any one of my good, male friends
2) i really don't think this can work
3) kalau kita dah mula bergaduh, who should i turn to then?
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ok.next,saya nak cakap pasal taylor swift.
tahu tak?
yang lagu dia kebanyakannya cerita pasal percintaan remaja mahupun pelajar kolej yang tidak kesampaian atau putus di tengah jalan.correct me if i'm wrong.i know a few guys yang sangat menyukai taylor swift.
i like her tunes.tapi i will switch to another radio station whenever i hear her song.muak.

i really missed how songs can be so innocent, or so smooth and easy to listened.
i listen to the radio everyday.in my car while i'm driving.
(i don't set any number on my car radio to a malay radio station.so my tulisan tidak ada kena mengena dengan lagu melayu)

why lah sekarang most of the songs are about sexy looking ladies or whatever there is to talk about a female as a subject?
i know the tunes are catchy, i admit that i do sometimes sing along with the tunes.
but i got sick with the lyrics.
and teenagers nowadays,are so easily being mused by these types of music.

between catchy songs talking about sex and alcohol, dengan harsh music talking about anger and madness,which one you think is more dangerous?

okay.now taylor swift's songs are making more sense.

i miss everclear, fastball, and even backstreet boys and N sync!
(even spice girls' songs are more....innocent.despite those crazy catsuit outfits)
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ok.this is just a selingan.

she's a beautiful monster with very sharp teeth.

she bites and there's nothing you can do about it.

she's extremely dangerous.and we love her!

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sekian, wassalam.

lulu comel

2010-10-23T13:45:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Today is Saturday.

Tomorrow will be my another big day.
I'm organising a luncheon talk tomorrow, which will be delivered by me.
haha agak syok sendiri jugak.
sendiri buat,sendiri cakap,sendiri jemput, semua sendiri.
nak buat macam mana, dah kerja memang macam tu.

After all preparations being done-inviting all the nurses, dealt with the hotel management, payments, dealing with the cosmetic team for grooming session, hampers, and everything,

i still feel that there are plenty of things yet to be done.

oh nervous oh.

i will upload all the pictures later, lepas function successfully executed okay.

NEXT BIG THING: a big scale project in november in a felda in mersing.
my oh my.itu memang bloody nervous.Ya Tuhan, permudahkanlah urusanku.Amin.
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I already met my future supervisor for my master's degree.
she's a nice person.
she agreed to hand a research project to me, alongwith the fund. Insya Allah.

So I may be starting my project in early 2011. Insya Allah.

Really can't wait to 'leave' the life i'm currently living and move into 'another' life.
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moving on.

saya seorang yang panas baran.
but yet, saya juga seorang yang sabar tak bertempat.

this morning, i was queing at the weighing counter, just to weigh my red chillies.
i was behind a lady with a trolly, she was weighing a number of things.
suddenly another lady came from the opposite direction.
and then another makcik came up from my side.

i just don't understand this kampung attitude.
it's plain to understand, that no matter how young the person who's queuing in front of you,
there's no way you should simply cut the queue.

no harm in asking me, "adik,boleh bagi makcik dulu tak?makcik dah tak sabar dah ni"
seriously, for me, how lame your excuse will be, as long as you're being polite, i can give you the way.

tak faham.
makcik, you're lucky i am a patient person.
kalau saya biadab, mungkin makcik akan balik rumah dan bercerita sekampung yang budak-budak zaman sekarang ni kurang ajar.

that's one thing.

here's another thing.

i also have unreasonable patience towards people's attitude.
especially when a guy i fancy is around.

yeah.sometimes i act stupid.
i am 24 but i act like a 17.

this is no time to wait for a guy to say yes under the shining moonlight.
but here i am, acting like a 17, giggling when i feel cherished and moody when i feel like talking to a tree.

it is truly easier said than done.
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wahhhhhh!!!!!!!

sekian, wassalam.

a reminder

2010-10-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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waiting is the nature of my job.
waiting for the doctor to see me, is my daily snack.

i waste my time a lot in government clinics.
it's like a schoolyard to me, where i comment people's actions silently, and i keep them in mind,
so that i can do better for my family to come.

kanak-kanak nakal memang menggeramkan.
kadang-kadang remaja juga.
sometimes, people dare not to blame the genetic,because that means they are pointing at their own angry faces.

maka, bila kanak-kanak buat pasal,
kadang-kadang taska disalahkan.
atau guru sekolah.
ataupun: 'ni anak awak la ni!' 'eh,anak saya pulak.anak awak la!'.

the early years of infancy and childhood adalah vital stage untuk pembesaran.
masa tu saiz otak akan membesar dengan cepat.

memang tak dinafikan, masa tu ibu bapa akan berebut-rebut membeli produk susu yang mengandungi semua jenis nutrien yang diperlukan.

kalau jumpa yang ada seratus jenis nutrien, beli yang itu.
kemudian keluar pula yang ada sejuta jenis nutrien, tukar pula ke yang itu.
(eh apa ni)

ok ok ok.
pokok pangkalnya, my point is, what the kid learnt from their parents.

ada satu ketika, satu orang budak menangis kuat di klinik.
klinik yang ramai orang.
point of action yang tercegat dalam kepala: go to the kid and tell him softly, to stop crying.
or maybe make him happy.
but then, the mother, mad at the son, marah him back, as loud as the child's cry, at the very busy place.

it's true, genetic plays a big part in the children's characteristics.
but, as soon as the baby is out from the womb, he will go through other phases in growing up.

nutrition.
environment.
nurturing.
love and tender care.

what's the difference between a poor mother giving her baby diluted condensed milk but is able to be with the baby 24/7, with a mother giving her baby a gold brand milk powder but only sees her baby from dusk until dawn, itupun if the mother is the one who tukar all the pampers and everything, not the father.

i know i am still not married, let alone has child.
but this is maybe, a reminder for me, as i don't want my child, to not listen to me, one day.
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i think that is all.thanks.wassalam.

on sunday night

2010-10-17T21:49:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

I would really love to blog about the 2011 budget ~~so that my blog would look intellectual~~ but honestly, i don't want to talk about things i don't really know about. yeah but i do update myself now and then.
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i went to ukm last two weeks.

without any scheduled appointment, i went to see one of the lecturers.
to discuss on postgraduate research project.

remember i told u about my plan to further my study?
so basically, ini adalah langkah awal untuk memastikan plan saya berjaya.

i told her my purpose, and plans.
and she showed positive feedbacks.
and she will help me on this.

and i will make sure i'll do it.
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i lost weight.

it's a big deal.and i'm not happy about it.

i look skinny.and i don't feel healthy.i feel tired.and i have runny nose everyday.
it doesn't look good.especially on 1st date.
(yeah.saya selesema on my 1st date a couple of weeks ago.that was terrible)
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a couple of weeks ago,i went to a govt hospital to see a doctor.
to invite her to a symposium.
that went well.

on my way back to the car park, i stopped by a small room.

and then it happened.
i registered as an organ donor.

i told my family about that.
i was, and still am the first one to do that.
my nenek opposed me at first, but then after a few pujuk-ing, it went well.

i wonder what my future husband has got to say about that.
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my life currently is not as colorful and as interesting as it used to be.

i feel...ordinary.
i dont feel excited.
i dont feel great.
i need my old me back.
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sekian, wassalam.

another night another day what can i say

2010-10-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera,

Just sharing some information, or maybe getting attention from you fellas:

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Brother Anthony called me a few days ago. Asking for some sort of donorship. For the orang asli.

Since I have a few items to be donored, I called him back, after a tiring week.

At first, I was hesitating, whether to go, or not to go.

I don't even know who he is.

What I know is he's from a church organization, helping some orang asli.

And then finally I decided to go look look see see first. Haha.

I informed the nurses at a nearby govt clinic.

I guess the information is somewhat, not very beneficial for them.

Then I myself went and met this bro. anthony, alone.

All along the way, I recited whatever prayers I had thought of.

We went through a very nice and exquisite-built housing area.

In my heart, I doubted that, there, among all those big houses with big cars and big gardens, exist some hungry children.

Then we passed through a rocky road.

Dusty and stony all over.

I saw a surau. "Oh, ada orang Islam rupanya,"

But hey, that was on the left side, while we were turning into the right side of the road.

We drove through (in two separate cars) a snakey road [jalan macam ular] until we reached a fisherman village.

I've been to a kampung orang asli village before in johor bahru, but that was, I can say, more 'developed' compared to this one.

this brother anthony, is working for his church.
he begged for donations, and he got it.

where on earth is our people?
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If you have anything, clothes, food, whatever transferable, they will always welcome you.

but remember,
give them net and stick, instead of feeding them with fish.
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sekian, wassalam.

outstation notes

2010-10-06T20:41:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Saya kini,berada dalam fasa bad-mood-jangan-nak-buat-lawak-bodoh-dengan-aku-tapi-kalau-kau-buat-pun-paling-kuat-aku-menyumpah-dalam-hati-je.

No matter how hard I try, I still cannot please everybody.

Oh ye.petang tadi bos call, perihal confirmation saya kena extend, dari 6 bulan ke 9 bulan.

Don't worry, boss. I don't feel as bad as you do.Have I told you my plan of furthering my study?

But seriously, I do feel frustrated. Not because I miss the chance of being confirmed, tapi it tells that i was 'not doing my job'.
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Sebenarnya petang tadi saya baru sahaja sampai dari mersing, sebab ada kerja luar.
Sampai jb sahaja,tak sempat nak masuk rumah, saya dah keluar semula untuk berjumpa prospek di jb.

cakap tentang mersing, saya telah menyewa satu bilik di sebuah hotel di sana.
dah lama tak tidur di rangkaian hotel tersebut. tak tahulah bintangnya dah berapa sekarang ni.
try lah.

Well well. Rasa tertipu lah jugak.
Memanglah boleh claim. Tapi hanya half of it.
Lepas ni tak mau lah try lagi!
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Pagi tadi semasa bersiap, saya menonton rancangan National Geographic.
Berkisarkan pengembaraan 2 org journalists di Ethiopia dan Bolivia.

Mereka menyara hidup mereka dengan menulis jurnal pelancongan dan disiarkan dalam majalah.
Kerja mereka jalan-jalan sahaja.
Bestnya!

Seriously, jika ada peluang, mahu sahaja saya apply kerja sebagai journalist untuk majalah pelancongan.
Biarlah keuntungan tak seberapa.
Tapi duit jalan dan duit makan ditanggung kan?
I would die to get my two feet landed on every inch of earth. Chewah.
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I heard a joke on the radio this afternoon.
Yeah it made my day.

Once upon a time, there's a man and a woman.

Man: Woman, let's get married.
Woman: No.

And the man lives happily ever after.

Well at least I think it's funny.
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Talking about marriage, at the age of 24, I almost got fed up in this whole thing.
Plus my chaotic worklife.
Plus my .... what's worse than a chaotic worklife?

And my family is not the carikkan-jodoh type.

Yes, there's still hope.
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Sekian, wassalam.

p/s: am going to kl for holiday tomorrow and the day after.
i really hope work will not disturb me these 2 days.

Morning notes.

2010-10-03T07:30:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Many,many,many,many things happened.

Went to work. Discovered boss said bad things about me. Discovered that another person created the story that boss said bad things about me. That another person resigned. Worked on weekend. Discovered that there's an archery centre nearby. Discover that there's an antique shop near the archery centre. Celebrated Hari Raya. Felt sick during hari raya. Met some friends. Met friends asking when to get married. Met friends who asked how to get married while there's nobody to be married with. Met friends who proposed their friends as boyfriends-to-be. Worked on another weekend, in Muar. Met some nurses friends. Met some nurses friends asking the same question. Listened to advised by the nurses friends regarding the possible answers to the same question. Met some doctors for the symposium. Completed target for quarter 3 - work related. Worked on another weekend. Invited to be a speaker at a luncheon talk. Prepared a last-minute slide. Blogged.

There there. I summarized it all. Haha.
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Memenuhi kehendak kita adalah seperti menuang air berkarbonat ketika berhari raya di rumah kawan.

Kita dah banyak minum air berkarbonat itu di lima rumah sebelum itu. Tapi tiba di rumah keenam, kita masih menuang lagi.

Adakah kita haus? Mungkin juga.
Adakah kita sekadar mahu menjaga hati tuan rumah? Ini paling mungkin.

Dan ketika itu, kita akan teragak-agak berapa banyak kita nak minum.

Tuan rumah tuangkan sedikit, kita kata: Oppp, cukuplah tu.
Tapi tuan rumah tuang sikittttt je lagi.
Kita pun: Ala...takpelah.sikit je lagi.
Padahal perut dah memulas. Gelas sudah separa penuh.

Kadang-kadang, ada yang sampai tertuang hingga hampir tertumpah.

Kalau saya ikutkan kehendak melebihi kemampuan saya, nescaya lebih 3/4 gaji bulanan saya akan pergi ke syarikat penghutang atau perkhidmatan berbayar.
Sekarang ni pun..hampir 1/2 dah pergi kepada mereka.
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Kadang-kadang saya pernah mahu terfikirkan baik buruknya tiga hari dijadikan hari hujung minggu.
Kerana kadang-kadang hari pertama hujung minggu sudah digadaikan kepada hari bekerja.
Maka, 4 hari bekerja dan 3 hari bercuti.
Jika ia boleh meningkatkan produktviti, apa salahnya?

Tunggu saya jadi tauke kilang kek la.Saya buat 3 hari cuti. Chewah.
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Selamat berhujung minggu.
Sekian, wassalam.

pesanan penaja

2010-08-22T20:17:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Jika junjungan mulia masih lagi hidup dan melihat kemungkaran yang berlaku, apakah kata Baginda?

petang tadi saya membaca satu email fwd oleh seorang kawan.

menunjukkan profile facebook seorang lelaki pertengahan 20-an mungkin, yang secara jelas dan terangnya mengutuk kemuliaan Ramadhan.

Dek kerana warna kulitnya dan bangsa pada kad pengenalannya, sukar untuk dia tidak berpuasa.
Dan juga beberapa cadangan lain untuk menegakkan ideologinya.

beristighfar panjang saya membaca email itu.

Apakah makanan yang telah dimakannya?
Apakah ilmu yang telah dituntutnya?
Apakah pengajaran yang telah disampaikan oleh ibu bapanya?

Janganlah anak saya nanti, sepuluh atau dua puluh tahun akan datang tercemar mindanya sebegitu rupa.
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I have decided that, I am, currently, do not believe in pre-marriage, suam-suam kuku relationships.

Definition:
Relationship yang: 1) tak tentu bila nak ditamatkan dengan perkahwinan yang sah; atau 2) tentu untuk ditamatkan dengan perkahwinan yang sah, cuma tak tahu la bila.

this is what i currently believe in. dan saya rasa saya adalah sangat cool kalau dapat bercinta selepas kahwin.

well,that does not happen often in real world.in fictional tales maybe.

i have analysed my decision, and i came to a few reasons for it:
1) i was, and still am, frustrated with all the 'relationships' i've had, where they did me more harm than good.
2) i lost faith in guys i know, especially those at my age, where i don't see that they can lead me for the betterment of my future.
3) i have a problem with sharing my thoughts with guys at my age. things that matter to me don't mean much to them. or maybe i can simplify this as differences in maturity?
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reality updates:

1) i submitted my application for the MSc, awaiting the feedback.i called the faculty like a hundred times, sadly there was NOBODY AT ALL to pick up my call, from the morning till petang. please hire me to be the person to pick up the phone at your faculty pleaseeeeeeeeee.berlambak-lambak orang nak kerja kat tempat awak tu.jadi tukang angkat telefon pun jadiklah.ish!
2) i have improved a lot in work (true.my boss told me that). i am not fond of whatever i'm doing now. but i have successfuly forced myself to complete every task given. i'm gonna miss this chaotic job once i got accepted by the faculty. Insya Allah.
3) Ramadhan has provided me a wide channel of comforting and easing myself. I feel less stressful and calmer although I ditch about my job often,but less than before.
4) code of ethics or no code of ethics.i do my job you do yours.muka saya semakin tebal dan hati semakin keras.i will do whatever it takes in order to ensure that i meet my datelines and deadlines. friend or no friend. i know what you know and so do you.
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in case my fingers get numb in carihari next time,prior to that,saya tahu ayat-ayat saya often bersifat kasar atau tidak sopan dan mungkin menyakiti hati awak. jadi beritahulah saya jika itu berlaku. i'll do what i gotta do.

saya minta maaf. mungkin ada maaf saya yang tak sampai. tapi at least i tried.

jaga diri. wassalam.

Nila biru

2010-08-11T01:28:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera,

Terlebih dahulu saya ingin mengucapkan selamat berpuasa kepada semua yang membaca ini.

Dicipta sebagai seorang perempuan memang banyak hikmahnya. Jadi janganlah sedih kalau tak dapat sambut 1 Ramadhan.
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Sudah menjadi tugasan saya untuk berkongsi latest research ataupun products with the healthcare providers.

Berkali-kali saya tegaskan kepada beberapa pihak tertentu yang saya tidak dibenarkan menjual susu dengan harga murah, hatta dengan harga biasa sekalipun. Itu sudah menyalahi kod etika yang digariskan kepada kami.

Saya juga faham dengan tanggung jawab sesetengah pihak yang berjuang bermati-matian mahu menggalakkan penyusuan susu ibu kepada bayi. Tidak pernah sekalipun saya mengeluarkan kenyataan bahawa susu ibu itu tidak lengkap. Begitu juga dengan rakan-rakan sejawatan saya. Saya juga percaya mana-mana wakil dari mana-mana syarikat dengan objektif yang sama juga tidak pernah menyangkal kehebatan susu ibu.

Saya hormat kerja mereka yang memantau dan memeriksa premis yang menyalahi tata etika. Saya juga pernah selak buku yang anda selak, jurnal atau tribunal yang anda baca (mungkin tidak semua).
Percayalah, kami amat sensitif dengan keselamatan prospek-prospek kami.
Kami perlukan mereka, maka kami sangat hargai keselamatan mereka.

Tetapi, apabila mereka diperlakukan seperti pesalah, kami rasa bersalah.
Terutama saya,apabila isu itu menjadi lebih serius seperti isu perkauman,isu politik.

Puncanya, tiada budi bahasa.

Saya percaya, golongan akademia dan profesional pasti memahami tata cara budi bahasa.
Lebih-lebih lagi orang Melayu yang (dahulunya) sinonim dengan keluhuran budi bahasa.

Kita masuk tempat orang, kita tahu, tempat tuju adalah pintu. Dan mahu masuk ke tempat orang hendaklah meminta izin.
Nak masuk tandas pun ada doanya.
Pastilah nak masuk premis orang kena beri salam ataupun sapaan ringkas.

Begitu juga mahu menjalankan tugas di tempat orang.
Apalah salahnya berbahasa, bersopan-santun dan berbudi-pekerti.

Jangan kerana adanya nametag anda itu,anda jadikan ia pasport untuk menjadikan diri anda superior.
Jangan lupa orang di sekeliling anda lebih bijak, lebih berpengalaman, lebih dahulu makan garam dari anda.
Ketegasan itu perlu, tapi jangan sampai menyakiti hati tuan tempat anda berpijak.

Jangan sampai nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga.

Saya malu dengan anda. Betul-betul malu. Rasa macam mahu menangis bila mendengar luahan hati orang itu.

Ya, saya muda. Saya tak tahu apa-apa.
Tapi sekurang-kurangnya, saya tahu tempat orang bukanlah untuk kita buat sesuka hati kita.
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Salam Ramadhan. Selamat berpuasa. Wassalam.

isn't it ironic?

2010-08-08T13:04:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Telah saya habiskan selama 4 tahun pertapaan demi mendalami ilmu pemakanan manusia.
Kalau diikutkan,saya mampu bersalin sebanyak 4x dalam tempoh itu. Tapi kalau bersalin baju tak payah cakaplah.
Maka gerombolan-gerombolan manusia yang bertapa di lembah tandus itu telah pun selamat dilepaskan rantainya dalam satu ritual penuh dengan penonton di atas lantai yang licin,digilap licin-selicin-licinnya demi upacara itu.

Arakian kisahnya gerombolan-gerombolan itu telah dipukulkan dengan satu tanggungjawab besar kepada mereka,samada mereka sedar ataupun tidak - mencari harta karun tersembunyi - kertas kecil bergambar separa badan manusia berpakaian tradisional melayu lengkap bertanjak.

Pertandingan ini tiada syarat penyertaan, pemenang dinilai berdasarkan sebanyak mana kertas magik itu bisa ditemukan.
Namun,peserta-peserta itu telah dibocorkan dengan rahsia kudus: usaha tangga kejayaan.

Berbekalkan pegangan teguh kepada rahsia kudus nan satu itu, gerombolan manusia itu bertungkus lumus mencari harta karun tersembunyi.

Dengar khabar terdapat berjuta-juta lemon lokasi harta karun itu, masing-masing dijaga oleh pelbagai makhluk urban yang tidak diduga akal kesukarannya.

Naga berkepala sembilan.
Ular bersisik api.
Buaya berkaki tujuh, dan banyak lagi.

Ada peserta yang berserah. 'Aku ada rahsia kudus. Rantaiku telah kutanggalkan. Semua itu mudah sahaja bagiku,' dan diserahkan badan six-pack itu kepada si naga itu.

Kenyang setiap mulut kepala naga itu. Dahsyat.

Gerombolan peserta itu sedar, tanpa senjata, mana bisa kita tewaskan makhluk-makhluk ekstrateresterial itu.
Kata-kata keramat tidak lagi begitu berkuasa peranannnya pada zaman serba moden ini.

Senjata. Harus cari senjata.

Bertempiaranlah gerombolan itu. Berpecah ke sana ke sini. Bertemu sang purbawara dan sang penjaga senjata.
Disembah, dibelai, dipohon, dipinta sehinggalah beberapa purnama tempohnya.
Senjata berjaya diterima.

Tidaklah dikatakan mudah untuk menewaskan semua makhluk pelik itu.
Tapi sekurang-kurangnya 7 daripada 9 kepala berjaya dipisahkan dari badannya.

Kira okey la tu.

Maka berjuanglah sang peserta-peserta menewaskan makhluk demi makhluk yang tak terkira banyaknya, demi mengejarkan harta karun itu.
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Persoalannya, saya belajar bidang pemakanan tetapi saya kekurangan zat makanan. Apakah?
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Sekian, wassalam.

good old days - pictorial

2010-08-07T09:51:00.002+08:00

kedai plastik - dah tiada.nak lebarkan jalan katanya.

kulai.

sunset en route danga.

good old smiles.

unlikely

2010-08-04T20:48:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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saya pinjam daripada saudari fynn jamal:

melankoli sang hati.
tapi jemari yang remang.
sebutan puisi ini hambar.
persetanlah kau jari-jari bodoh.

terima kasih kerana wujudkan buku kulit hitam bersimbol hati itu.
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badan penat.mungkin menyebabkan ketidakstabilan emosi.
apa orang lain buat semua salah.

nasib baik pass exam.
at least ada good news untuk cover up rasa-rasa sedih ni.

empati itu ada bila teman sekerja kongsi cerita.
teman sekerja yang lebih senior.
dah ada orang baru,orang lama ni disimpan tak nak,dibuang ditunggu-tunggu.

biarpun sketsa berbeza.susun letak plotnya sama.
benda dah jadi.baru rasa macam mana.

sedih.

emosi.tabii.adaptasi.
kau buat aku berjauh hati.
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sekian,wassalam.

'kawan'

2010-07-30T20:34:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Dulu-dulu pernah gempar kisah kucing kena letak dalam botol kaca supaya kucing itu membesar dalam bentuk petak.

eh.struktur ayat macam tunggang langgang.maka inilah dia (sikit lebih kurang camni la):

i do not own this picture.i googled it.

ada la tuan-tuan punya kucing,demi mendapatkan bentuk badan kucing yang unik,dia membela anak kucing itu di dalam botol.tube-fed,maka kucing itu akan membesar dan berkumuh dari dalam botol itu.

maka tadi saya wiki animal cruelty.surprisingly,saya terjumpa sesuatu yang menarik:

'The Swiss animal protection laws are among the strictest in the world, comprehensively regulating the treatment of animals including the size of rabbit cages, and the amount of exercise that must be provided to dogs.'-from wikipedia.

size of rabbit cages y'all.

maka berbalik kepada isu utama.

adakah dengan menangkap anak musang liar dan mengurungnya dalam sangkar,ditinggalkan di bawah pokok berhujan berpanas,boleh dikategorikan dalam animal cruelty?

(baru je lepas google gambar fox.ingat nak letak kat sini.sekali gambar megan fox la pulak yang keluar.tak jadi nak letak gambar)
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bukan nak gong.bukan nak tunjuk baik.

tapi belum pernah pun saya dengar orang kata saya biadab.atau rude.

tapi apabila cik bos memaklumkan kepada saya yang seorang officemate complaint pada beliau mengatakan saya rude dan kurang ajar,saya rasa tercabar.
officemate itulah yang paling rapat dengan saya.

dan officemate itu sering kutuk bos dekat saya.

"Whoever gossips to you will gossip about you." Spanish proverb.

[scroll atas.scroll bawah.scroll atas balik.bukankah saya sedang bergossip?ain't it the same thing?]
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sebagai seorang pelayar laman facebook tegar,tidak mengetahui fungsi button 'hide' adalah sesuatu yang memalukan.

maka,setelah mengetahui kegunaannya,saya telah hidekan:

1-seorang 'kawan' yang selalu update status dan suka status sendiri setiap kali.
2-seorang 'kawan' yang suka update status dengan tag ramai kawan-kawannya supaya kawan-kawannya akan memberi respond menggalakkan.
3-seorang 'kawan' yang sukaaaaa dan selalu sangat share video dan lirik lagu nasyid.
4-seorang 'kawan' yang suka update status berunsurkan memarahkan satu lagi pihak (yang mana berkemungkinan saya kenal).tapi tak settle2 kesnya dari dahulu sampailah sekarang.
5-dan beberapa orang 'kawan' yang sering update status berkenaan frasa-frasa ayat berunsur percintaan,tapi we never spoke a word before.

dan sekarang saya rasa wall facebook saya sungguh aman damai.
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esok adalah weekend.dan saya gembira.nextweek gonna be another busy week.outstation ke pontian,kluang dan mersing.

sekian,wassalam.

tak suka pun tak apa.

2010-07-25T18:49:00.002+08:00

1. saya tak suka orang yang tak flush toilet.
2. saya tak suka orang yang tak flush toilet.
3. saya tak suka orang yang tak flush toilet.
4. saya tak suka bau kerang/ rebung rebus.
5. saya tak suka pakai barang kemas.
6. saya tak suka bau asap kereta.
7. saya tak suka makan durian.
8. saya tak suka tempat yang ramai orang.
9. saya tak suka tengok drama melayu hari sabtu malam.
10. saya tak suka orang yang bermuka-muka.
11. saya tak suka suasana bising.
12. saya tak suka orang kacau saya tengok movie.
13. saya tak suka orang kacau saya baca buku.
14. saya tak suka disuruh.
15. saya tak suka handbag kecil.
16. saya tak suka sandal perempuan yang macam ini:

17. saya tak suka orang yang tak suka saya tapi dia cakap dia suka saya.
18. saya tak suka buat benda yang saya tak tahu apa tujuannya.
19. saya tak suka orang yang kutuk kerajaan pasal itu ini tapi bila ditanya cadangan penambahbaikan, haprak.
20. saya tak suka paper metro.
21. saya tak suka baca novel melayu. dan saya tak suka kelambakan novel cinta berbahasa melayu di kedai buku.
22. saya benci harga buku novel dan majalah import yang mahal. kerana tak boleh beli selalu.
23. saya benci tengok perempuan pakai hot pants. terutama dalam kuantiti ramai.
24. saya benci orang tegur kesalahan saya/orang lain tapi tak tegur kesalahan sendiri.
25. saya tak suka buat kerja rumah bila ada ramai orang di rumah.
26. saya tak suka kena perli.i'd prefer teguran direct.
27. saya tak suka kena bebel.
28. saya tak suka teddy bear.
29. saya tak suka pakai make up.
30. saya tak suka fasha sandha. tak kisahlah fasha sandha suka saya ke tak.
31. saya tak suka orang tuduh saya bukan-bukan bila saya keluar rumah waktu malam.

sekian.

another weekend

2010-07-24T15:02:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Hari ini hari sabtu. semalam juga hari sabtu untuk saya sebab semalam saya cuti.
tapi petang semalam saya ada talk.my first talk yang saya organize sendiri dan deliver sendiri.
audience cuma 20 orang je la tapinya.terdiri daripada nurses dan seorang doktor.

bos juga turut datang.

dan setelah menghantar bos pulang ke office,dengan tak menyempat-nyempat saya selak helaian demi helaian evaluation form sambil menunggu lampu trafik menjadi hijau.

senyum sorang-sorang.
:) :) :)
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namun di celah-celah kesenyuma itu masih wujud kerisauan.

sekarang baru dapat experience betul-betul.

kawan tikam kawan.yang di belah kiri kutuk yang kanan.yang di belah kanan kutuk yang kiri.
saya juga dikutuk oleh orang yang belah kanan, menurut kata orang yang di belah kiri.

Masya Allah. dugaan. ignorance is bliss.

setelah dapat heart to heart talk dengan bos, feel a bit relieved.
tapi dah buat keputusan. i will listen, but i will not hear.
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hari ini ada meeting.

oh lupa.setiap hari ahad kami (seorang kawan saya+saya) akan mengajar di rumah barkat.
tadi ada meeting dengan pihak pentadbiran.

dipersembahkan kepada kami keputusan peperiksaan anak-anak itu.

aduh.tersentak dan tersentap juga melihat keputusan mereka.
rasa kecewa dan marah dengan diri sendiri kerana sumbangan diri seperti tiada kemajuan yang dapat dilihat.
bukan setakan tak dapat A,malah fail.

kecewa.hampa.marah.geram.sedih.
bukan dengan budak-budak tu.tapi dengan diri sendiri.
what did i do wrong?

kemudian ucapan pengerusi rumah barkat,cikgu-cikgu berpengalaman telah berjaya mengubah persepsi,walaupun pengerusi itu kelihatan seperti tidur je sepanjang sesi.(maaf ya tuk).

baru rasa semangat.
baru rasa nak kerja lebih keras lagi.

dan juga rasa terharu yang amat.tak putus-putus pihak pentadbiran mengucapkan terima kasih kepada kami kerana melapangkan masa kami di sana.

sungguh teramat terharu.rasa macam orang besar pula.haha.

makanya.esok ada kelas.

siaplah korang budak-budak.main-main lagi dalam kelas.korang tunggulah...
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kelmarin saya mimpi.

saya kahwin dengan sorang mat saleh/pak arab/pan-asian looking guy (tapi muda la).
[biasalah...mana nak ingat mimpi kan]

bab paling tragic adalah,

[kategori:U]

scene:
saya dan husband sedang bersandar di atas katil.bercakap-cakap.on our separate pillows.
setelah bercakap-cakap,the husband sudah mengantuk.

selepas dia mengantuk,dia cakap "goodnight,_(another lady's name)_"
kemudian tiba-tiba muncul seorang perempuan di tengah-tengah kami dan suami saya mencium dahi perempuan itu.kemudian terus tidur.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

walaupun mimpi itu mainan tidur,saya bangun dalam keadaan sedih dan terbawa-bawa mood itu sepanjang hari.

itu ke perasaannya bila husband kita ada affair dengan perempuan lain?
wooo tak mau.
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sekian,wassalam.

cinta

2010-07-23T00:01:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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adalah normal bagi sesebuah keluarga untuk berlaku pergaduhan.
pergaduhan kecil.pergaduhan besar.pergaduhan separa.pergaduhan penuh.

rumah sempit - gaduh.
anak menangis - gaduh.
jiran berkereta/berperabot besar - gaduh.
hutang banyak - gaduh.
mengumpat - gaduh.

orang kata,bagus bergaduh ni.bila berbaik dapat merapatkan apa yang renggang.

baguskah jika berbaik secara paksa,dan kemudian ketidak puasan hati dibawa-bawa sehingga entah bila entah.
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ada ketika,mudah sahaja untuk disalurkan sesuatu isu kepada kaum keluarga.
ada kalanya,diluah mati emak.ditelan mati bapak.

maka,peringkat seterusnya,disalurkan kepada kawan-kawan,dengan alasan:

-sama usia dan tahap kematangan.mungkin empati tu lebih sikit.
-kebiasaannya kawan akan memihak kepada kita dahulu.barulah lepas itu lebih equal.
-kawan akan mendengar cerita kita kerana kita juga akan mendengar cerita dia selepas itu.

-kaum keluarga takkan pernah memahami masalah kita. (tertakluk pada sesetengah kes).

kadang-kadang,demi menjaga hati kita,kita tidak akan dipersalahkan oleh kawan kita.
maka segala kesalahan,dia akan cover dahulu,kemudian barulah buat pertimbangan rasional kemudian.
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saya ada beberapa kawan/orang yang dikenali yang lebih tua daripada saya.

saya petik hasil perbualan dengan beberapa kawan lelaki saya yang sudah berkeluarga.

rata-rata menceritakan kisah kejahilan semasa zaman pra-kesedaran:
-solat tak pernah cukup
-tempat mana je tak pernah pijak
-apa jenis aktiviti je tak pernah try

sekarang?nah.boleh dibanggakan.

jadi,adakah kita boleh buat semua kesalahan itu dengan beranggapan bahawa satu hari nanti zaman itu pasti berlalu dan kita akan insaf juga akhirnya?

jika kita bercinta,tak perlulah nak menunggu apa yang menanti di hujung jalan.pasti kita nikmati setiap saat sebaiknya,bukan?

(juga pesanan kepada diri sendiri).
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sekian,wassalam.

yeah.that's it.that's just it.

2010-07-11T10:54:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Lots of things had happened recently.

These few weeks, it has been frustrating episodes of life.
But I survived it. With some decisions:

1) I will not do what I do now (ie career) for the rest of my life
2) I decided to further my study. I submitted the application form
3) I cannot do everything I wanted to do. Especially with the family members around
4) Life is not about being lucky. Everything needs sacrifice and actions. Those lucky ones,just ignore them. They have other things planned for them.
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Sepanjang musim World Cup ni, saya hanya pernah tengok satu perlawanan sahaja. Itu pun ulangan. Itu pun semasa saya dimasukkan ke hospital tempoh hari. Brazil vs Chile.

Bukannya tiada keinginan untuk menonton. Tapi sebagai seorang yang bukan fanatik bola, saya tidak akan sacrifice kecergasan bekerja untuk itu. Lebih-lebih lagi saya sudah mulai tidak menyukai kerja saya. Dan bos baru saya.

Bukan sekali dua saya tidak menyukai kerja saya. Tapi setiap pagi, saya akan bangun pagi dengan perasaan mahu berhenti kerja. Belum pun buat apa-apa lagi tu.

And I always think, with thought such as this, I will not feel happy working. And I don't want to earn money without having any enthusiasm in making it.

And thus my decision #2 is born. I want to further my study until it cannot be further-ed anymore. And I want to teach. Or to be exact, lecture. With the right certificates accompanying me.
(Yes. I tend to look down at people who claim to be a lecturer, when all I can see is that he/she is only a degree holder. Because I've been there and done that.)
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Dua tiga hari ini saya suka pula mem-wiki dan meng-google segala pautan berkenaan christiannity dan vatican city dan segala mala perkaitannya.

Seseorang pernah berkata kepada saya 'It's okay. Know your enemy'

Semakin banyak saya membaca semua itu, semakin saya mencurigai orang-orang di sekeliling saya. Adakah saya sudah mula menyemai paranoia di dalam diri?
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I don't talk much with my family members. For me, perbualan yang biasa wujud itu tidak memberikan faedah kepada saya.

And I know, I was and still am wrong. For every interactions been made, that's make a family healthier. Tapi does that count if it contains umpatan dan perlian?

So I tend to play safe, I only talk when I need to, or I want to. And now, what happened?

They come to me if there is anything they want to tell me. Don't I feel guilty?
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I decided to do a part time job, later, if I got accepted to further my study.
I need to earn something. Well atleast for my car and fuel and for myself.

I did planned everything. But how easy will that be?

I know it's gonna be hard. I just know. I hope I am ready for that.
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Okay. Something happy to chill up the day.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....what aaa?

I REALLY NEED TO FIGURE THAT ONE OUT.FAST!!
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Talk to you later. Apologies for the delay.
Sekian, wassalam.

demam

2010-06-28T23:02:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera,

I 'm always the kind of person who think I can do anything. And I can bare all the risk coming along with it.

I'm always the kind of person who takes into account of everything people advise or say to me.

And I'm always the kind of person who accept life as a classroom, where we can do mistakes with one condition: we agree to learn from it.

And those are the explanations to everything wandering in my mind right now.
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It happened that one of these days, a boyfriend of a friend messaged me on facebook.
Chat punya chat punya chat, he came to a point where he offered me to be a partner in a franchising business, where he funds it while I run it.

He told me how serious he is, and so do I.

I e-mailed the company for details. And they replied within one day, alongwith all those necessary information.

And lots of lots of lots of lots of homeworks to be done.

And these issues probed my mind like every 5 minutes?:

- How serious am I?
- Can I trust myself on this?
- Am I capable of doing it?
- Am I ready to give full commitment on this? Like quitting my job?
- How BLOODY SERIOUS am I or I am just PLAYING A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF?

I know I can give all my heart and soul in this. I just need a mentor, and plenty of supports.
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Saya tak pernah sakit yang serius.

Oh. Selain cysts yang dahulu pernah mengganggugugat keaktifan hidup saya sebentar.

Tetapi hari ini saya demam. Demam sejak Khamis.
Dan hari ini saya demam to the extend that pembantu perubatan itu suruh saya buat blood test.

And as I expected, kandungan hemoglobin rendah.
I don't know whether it's because of the demam or ia memang rendah.

In three days time, kalau demam lagi, harus kembali ke sana.

Dan saya malu, kerana hujung minggu ini saya akan menyampaikan satu talk di klinik itu.
Ceramah pemakanan.

Di klinik yang sama saya mendapatkan rawatan di mana pembantu perubatan itu suruh saya makan banyak-banyak sebab nak naikkan darah.

Jangan lah orang itu datang talk saya nanti.Hoho.
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This is the second time I composed this entry. The first time, laptop ini hang and everything went gone.Poof.

Yep. The second one is nothing compared to the original one.

Buy original.
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Sekian, wassalam.

notes from a person who's on leave

2010-06-25T15:11:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Harini saya MC. Mungkin kerana semalam dah sakit tekak,lepas tu bantai lagi makan benda bergoreng kat el migos tu.maka hasilnya harini sudah berkembang menjadi tonsillitis.

pesanan #1: jika doktor sudah tanya, harini boleh kerja ke tak, maka jawablah tak boleh. jadi tak payahlah nak patah balik ke klinik dan menghadap muka clinic assistant yang macam nak minta pelempang tu.
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petang ini saya akan ke kota tinggi. esok ada program di satu felda di sana. saya ditugaskan untuk berceramah di felda itu kepada ibu-ibu mengandung.

janganlah sakit tekakku ini berlarutan sampai ke esok.memang spoil.

pesanan #2: jangan terlalu enthusiast nak ganti puasa sampai puasa setiap hari, tapi malam jarang minum air masak. nanti bila sampai time program besar, jadi incapable of doing it. jatuh sakit.
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malam ini kami semua bercadang untuk makan di kedai hasan ong yang famous tu kat kota tinggi. dan saya yang recommend kan kepada rakan sepejabat. kami nak bawa orang hQ juga ke sana. menu di situ yang best antaranya fried baby sotong.

dan tadi doktor pesan jangan makan benda bergoreng atau benda pedas. ye la,nak jaga tekak la kan tak nak kasi sakit.

pesanan #3: ulang pesanan #2
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minggu ini mood saya memang bercampur baur. ada mood nak berhenti kerja. ada mood nak sambung belajar. ada mood nak buat business. tapi yang paling konsisten adalah mood nak berhenti kerja. the pressure is high, i can tell.

and now my hands started to shake. oh no. jangan kata hipoglukosemia pulak. i need to pack my stuffs la. dah janji jumpa di ofis jam 4 la dey.

take care guys. literally. take care.
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sekian,wassalam.

distraction

2010-06-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera

Maka benarlah kata orang, salahkan kerajaan China kerana mewujudkan sistem peperiksaan.

Mereka yang memulakan sistem peperiksaan untuk memasuki kerajaan, dan kemudiannya diceduk oleh British lalu diubahsuai untuk menepati kehendak mereka. Dan seterusnya famous lah kegunaannya ke seluruh dunia.

Pagi tadi ada teleconference berkenaan keputusan kuiz kami bulan lepas. dan saya fail.
tapi saya tak mahu salahkan kerajaan china.tapi saya mahu salahkan diri sendiri.boleh?
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terlanjur mem-wiki pasal peperiksaan,
siapakah pemilik pertama lesen memandu?

mestilah encik karl benz,pada tahun 1888.kan beliau pencipta otomobil moden kan?
maka dek kerana kenderaannya yang bising dan berbau (kenderaannya ialah Motorwagen),ramai orang di Mannheim complaint.

bayangkan lah di kala orang bersenyap-senyapan,tiba2 ada bunyi enjin.maka orang jadi annoyed lah kan.dah lah dia sorang je ada kereta.

lantas mr benz memohon dan memperolehi keizinan bertulis daripada pihak berkuasa Grand Ducal untuk menggunakan Motorwagennya di atas jalan raya.

negara jerman adalah negara pertama melaksanakan penggunaan lesen memandu berskala kebangsaan,yang melibatkan kelas memandu dan peperiksaan.

haih~ lagi setahun lagi nak dapat lesen penuh,ugh~
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siapakah randy bister?

does it ring a bell? mestilah tak.

he's the first person to introduce overalls as farm attire.yes.he's a farmer.

perkataan jeans itu sendiri bukanlah berasal dari amerika syarikat,tetapi perancis.ye,negara yang membuat onar di world cup baru-baru ini.saya ulangi,perkataan.

jeans fabric, atau denim berasal dari 2 tempat iaitu france dan india.ya,india.masa kat india tu,seluar denim dipakai oleh kelasi dari dhunga okay..yang juga dikenali sebagai dungaree.

gila kentang la jeans ni.lama kot.
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okeh.ada pulak kawan yang offer untuk manage kalau bukak franchise ni.i cannot focus on this entry any longer.see u later.wassalam.

journal

2010-06-20T19:09:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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Teringin rasanya membuat bancian.
Berapa orang yang tidak keluar rumah ketika hujung minggu (Sabtu dan Ahad),konon-kononnya sebab weekdays dah keluar hari-hari?

objektif: untuk membuatkan diri sendiri berasa normal kerana macam a bit kurang self confidence.
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OK.Saya rasa seperti harus membuat peringatan di sini.
Mungkin, mungkin lah kan,ada di kalangan pengunjung cari hari ini adalah budak-budak lepasan sekolah atau lepasan universiti yang baru sahaja mahu bekerja.

Jadi, peringatan saya adalah, ketika umur 24 tahun, anda akan mula menerima undangan perkahwinan, terutamanya di musim cuti sekolah.

Maka, apakah rasionalnya saya berkongsi peringatan ini?

Hadiah. Hadiah kahwin. Dan duit minyak untuk ke rumah pengantin. terutamanya bila kawan-kawan anda ramai yang jauh di mata tapi dekat di hati.

Jadi, bila usia anda mula menginjak 23 atau 24 tahun, bersiap-siaplah dengan fund tersebut. tu pun jika anda mempunyai hasrat untuk melihat kawan-kawan lama demi merapatkan silaturrahim.
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I have long-deleted the phrase 'regret' from my life.

that means, i will never regret anything i have done.
i feel that whatever actions have i taken, there are lessons that ought to be learnt.
and i should have learnt it, or else i will regret it.

yes,there's no use crying over spoilt milk.
i did feel that i have done many senseless,thoughtless,and even brainless things.
but those things made me who i am right now.

but we can never return back.all we can do is to look forward.
there are better things to come.believe that for everything that happened, there always be a hikmah behind it.

well,at least,those can soothe me.
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and finally,about work.

kerja baru saya ini sungguh memberikan tekanan kepada saya,sejujurnya.

i have targets that i must achieve.
and i have a boss (and other bosses under the big boss) with very high expectations
i have colleagues who dare not (or will not) tegur me directly if i do wrong
i have problems in navigating my areas
i still do feel scared of meeting my prospects (those very,very,very experienced doctors and nurses)

and i feel like i need a place to tell those things to.

i have tried very very hard to fit myself in.

but i still need supports.
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gotta run.take care.wassalam.

updates.again!

2010-06-08T19:27:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera,

It is not a habit for me to do photo-blogging,as it takes more time than to prepare a nasi goreng.

but today,i'm in the mood of sharing these photos,which i just took this evening,during my round to clinics in pontian.

i was amazed by how peaceful and green the place is,although there are some korek-korek here and there.

i stopped by a few times to snap some pictures using my phone.i have no camera.

and later on i got sesat for about an hour there.sebab dah masuk terlalu jauh.

here we go..
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last picture i took,a kandang ayam, i guess.but nobody was there.it was about 3.30 pm in a rainy evening.

thinking of trekking?this is no vacation photo,tapi somehow i found the place calming.

ok.got a bit jakun here.

and here.rasa macam nak baring on top of the pokok-pokok.minus the cacing and all those slimy creatures.

rasa macam dalam cerita-cerita je.tambah lagi tempat tu senyap gilaaaa with nobody around.terbaik!

and this one. i don't know,but i like it.i even stopped to have my quiet moments here.haha.tenang la konon.
(kenapa ada underline niiiii???)

same place.a very big lorry in front.actually i forgot whether it's a lorry or apa.

nice kan?
well at least i thought so.

and this.

and this.haha.rasa tenang tak?
takpe.kalau tak tenang,come to jb.i'll take u on a personal tour to this place.kita berdiri tepi jalan sama-sama.hehe
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dear friends,

you might think i'm lucky.

you might think i'm okay.

and you probably might think i'm happy.

disguise is another good thing,especially when your friend needs your shoulder to hold onto.
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some updates.

i am not planning on applying on the SPA scheme,currently.

it's not because i don't like it.
but it's just not the time,yet.

jadi,janganlah paksa saya,especially my family.
plus,saya juga sedang frust sebab fail 3rd phase exam ptd tempoh hari.haha

for now,let me enjoy the joy of working in this wonderful company.

you see,my bakery needs a lot of money to build it. :)
i also need money to make investment on gold.hehe
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sekian,wassalam.

duit lah

2010-05-27T22:44:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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Setiap bulan,(terutamanya bila dapat slip gaji),saya akan fikirkan,apa lagi investment yang perlu dibuat dengan duit gaji saya (selain investment di tempat2 yang langsung tiada pulangan).

and then somebody provide me with an option: gold as an investment.

gold investment has been a popular topic of discussion between me and a few friends of mine nowadays.

salah satu sebab yang meyakinkan saya bahawa investment emas adalah berbaloi (selain harga jual-belinya) adalah kegunaannya ketika (Nauzubillahi Min Zalik) negara dilanda perang.

kenaikan (atau penurunan) harga emas boleh bergantung kepada:

1-bank failure
orang ramai lebih suka membawa bank notes as compared to coins.bila manusia merasakan satu-satu bank tempat mereka menyimpan duit itu akan mengalami kegagalan, kemungkinan yang mereka mengeluarkan kesemua wang simpanan mereka adalah tinggi. ini mengakibatkan bank run. inilah yang berlaku pada tahun 1930-an,iaitu ketika Great Depression berlaku,mengakibatkan preseiden Roosevelt mengisytiharkan pemilikan emas untuk warga AS.

2-real interest rate yang rendah atau negatif
jika kadar pulangan untuk bon,ekuiti atau real estate tidak berbaloi dengan risiko yang ditanggung untuknya,demand untuk emas akan memainkan peranan di sini.inilah yang berlaku ketika stagflation di AS pada tahun 1970,iaitu apabila kadar inflasi dan pengangguran,kedua-duanya adalah tinggi.

3-perang,krisis dan penjajahan
okai.inilah sebab terbaik dalam pelaburan emas.ketika negara dilanda perang,tanah dan ekuiti adalah amat sukar untuk ditafsirkan nilainya,atau mungkin sudah tiada nilai lagi.maka,simpanan emas boleh ditukar nilai kepada matawang untuk memulakan pelaburan lain.

tapi,bukan murah.secara umumnya,1 gram emas bernilai lebih kurang rm130++.5 gram dah berapa?satu jongkong?

ada sesetengah bank yang meletakkan syarat am untuk simpanan emas adalah sekurang-kurangnya 5 gram untuk kali pertama.ada yang sampai 20 gram.

kemampuan saya?haih~belum lagi.kena kumpul duit dulu.walaweiii

(info adalah macam biasa,ihsan encik wiki.)

(wahhhhhh.pengsan pengsannnn!!!!!.
this picture is not owned by me.i copied and pasted it here.thanks for sharing and lending ur picture,mr-picture-owner)

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teamwork dalam bekerja di bawah satu bumbung itu adalah penting.saaaangat penting.

apa guna kalau asyik dok laung-laung 'teamwork!teamwork!' dalam semua email,kalau bos tak boleh nak tegur anak buah directly?

ur kind of teamwork can go to die.
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okay.today is non-working day.saya sangat gembira.

oh oh.did i tell u i did a part time job?
actually,it's not really part time job.well,when u say job,it'll involve money in it,right?

i teach maths for secondary 1 student here:

(ini bukan foto saya juga.ini foto pinjaman)
(heheyy.actually that is one of my student also lah.walaweii.muka kamu boleh digoogle lah.famous lah u.hehe)

di kesempatan ini,nak jugak lah saya menyeru,
jika anda mempunyai kelapangan masa,ataupun wang ringgit dan harta benda,tapi tak tahu apa nak buat,

well,now you'll know what to do.
they need help.in any form.
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okehlah.i've been leaving my laptop on all night long.biasalah,tertidur.

it's time for her to have a good rest.

will see you guys next time.

sekian,wassalam.

tie tie

2010-05-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

It has been a long time. Please forgive me. I got so much attached to work and social life.
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Saya telah pergi training di PJ minggu lepas selama seminggu.
Maka,pada weekend itu,saya telah ke Amcorp Mall bersama rakan-rakan.
Saya telah membeli buku pujaan hati,tulisan Dan Brown yang baru itu.
Kali ini juga menampilan robert langdon.

maka,bila sampai di satu part of the story,dia menyebut perihal neck tie.

maka,saya telah memulakan kebiasaan lama saya. saya wiki necktie.
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necktie telah memulakan perkhidmatan beliau sejak zaman perang thirty years' war (1618-1648).

ya. lama sudah.

croatian mercenaries, dari military frontier dalam french service memakai knotted neckerchiefs masa nak pergi berperang. dan perkara ini manarik perhatian the parisians.

yelah.orang sekarang ni pun pakai necktie nak pergi berperang jugak.

cari client.
kejar tender.
usha gadis.

perang lah tu.

dan di jepun,pemakaian tali leher berwarna pink tidak mengindikasikan sebarang petanda terhadap pemakainya.

terdapat juga anti necktie sentiment. di iran satu ketika dahulu,ketika islamic revolution,pemakaian tie diisytiharkan menggambarkan western oppression.

di ikea, nectie adalah tidak dibenarkan.

pemakaian necktie juga dikaitkan dengan kebersihan.
di israel, ada satu kajian menunjukkan doktor yang tidak memakai necktie kurang menyebarkan jangkitan berbanding rakan seangkatan yang memakai necktie.
mungkin kerana necktie adalah 'organ' yang paling kurang dicuci berbanding 'organ' yang lain.

bukan nak menggalakkan orang untuk tidak memakai necktie,tapi cucilah necktie anda.
dan juga baju kerja.
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bos saya telah membekalkan saya sehelai peta johor.
tidak saya sangkakan kepentingan peta itu sangat penting sehinggalah hari ini.

saya memandu sambil memegang peta di stering.dan saya telah memandu tanpa henti selama 2 jam+ kerana sesat.

ugh.
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sekian,wassalam.

traffic

2010-05-05T23:10:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Baru lepas study nota exam.
pagi tadi saya ada paper basic nutrition.dan saya flunk.dan saya sangat marah.marah dengan diri sendiri.

so this night,saya study betul2.saya slow comprehender.so i took like 4 hours to finish 13 pages of notes.

i hope i'll do well tomorrow morning.
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it's been 3 days here in pj.
i hate the traffic.i hate the unavailability off edible food.

3 days of fast food as dinner.another option: a 21 ringgit nasi goreng.

and a lot of stress.strenuos,long hours of knowledge-dense classes,and tests.
and a lot of karenah also.
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we discussed during dinner just now.
(actually,it all started with the chicken video in youtube i watched just now)
the differences of these 2 fields-nutrition and food technology.

nutrition will defend the fact that (most) natural sources are good.
food technology,as we are told,stressed on the production of new foods.

you see: natural resources VS genetically modified food
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my roommate is a married lady,same age as me.
and i can now listen to my jiran (orang yang tinggal di bilik sebelah ni) punya conversation dengan anak dia just now.
i think they are orang2 yang also datang untuk company meeting ke apa ke.
so these guys berbual dengan sangat kuat pasal bypass surgery and so on and so forth.

we have a connecting door.both sides are locked.(of course lah!)
but just now i heard the other side tried to open the door.
ok.good try,fella.
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i can't wait untuk balik jb this monday.
this training is sort of torturing me.haha

i'd better go to sleep.penat sudah.tata~

worry worry chicken naik lorry

2010-04-30T20:53:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
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help needed.this is serious.

i think too much.even the littlest things.
i am sure i am not the only person suffering from this (can we call this a) disease.
please.i really really need help.
true that this is what makes me,me.
but worrying on being deleted from a friend's facebook friendlist?this is too much man.
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hari ini extremely penat.
we had a talk at a resort in desaru.we have our company nutritionist being flewn in from kl to deliver the speech.my part?haha only small small one.the MC je.

everything went well..until the payment time.
we were charged another 600 ringgit for the hall rental (which is not included in the quotation).
and the staff sudah swiped my colleague's credit card lah for the charge.
apa lagi..everyone went marah-marah lah.panggil officer,panggil manager,panggil semua,takde yang datang.
kasihan pada cashier and waiter kat restaurant dia.jadi mangsa kemarahan.

and suddenly another person came (not the officer nor the manager) saying that we don't have to pay the extra 600,without any explanation.and siap voidkan payment credit card tu lagi.

yes.we like that.but without explanation?plus,we were late for one hour for another talk at another place.

and the journey back to jb,as usual,darn tiring.
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dalam kepenatan,saya sempat singgah di kedai cermin mata.
meminta pendapat optician itu tentang mata saya yang keletihan.
lepas check mata,power mata sudah jatuh more than 100 lah!
from 175 to 25,that is quite shocking la i guess.

dan kakak itu minta saya datang minggu depan.kata dia,mungkin
- mata saya penat sangat,jadi komputer itu tak boleh read dengan betul
- komputer itu memang tak betul
- saya makan carrot dengan sangat banyak,dan memang power mata sudah turun

yes.i miss the moments walking and driving freely without having my glasses being put on.
saya mahu tidak bercermin mata!tapi macam tak berani.
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oh yes.
i really want to share this.

one schoolmate who has never had a word with me during school added me in facebook.ok fine.
and now chatting with me,and asking me out for a movie.

i told him,that he's a stranger to me.why ask me out when he doesnt even know me?
he said he was joking,and i can't accept his jokes.

and i told him i don't joke with strangers.(plus the gatal2 one lagi lah kan).
and he deleted me from his friendlist?

see.i told you.i worry even on the littlest,most not-important thing.haiya~
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sekian,wassalam.